How's everyone holdin' up? No negative waves, I hope.

How's everyone holdin' up? No negative waves, I hope.

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  1. 1 year ago
    Anonymous

    I'm about to sell out my mother to the NEA for trafficking cocaine because she sold my gun to get high. Talk me out of this guys.

    • 1 year ago
      Anonymous

      On one hand, revenge is sweet. On the other hand, women deserve to be punished. On the other hand, narcing to the feds is gay.

    • 1 year ago
      Anonymous

      Frick that b***h. Nuke crackheads from orbit.

      • 1 year ago
        Anonymous

        Lmao, Americans sell out their mothers to the State instead of supporting their blood.
        Total societal breakdown imminent.
        > t. ESL, you gays

        • 1 year ago
          Anonymous

          >You have to support your thieving druggie relatives if you don’t you’re making society collapse

          • 1 year ago
            Anonymous

            Where I'm from we support our suffering relatives with everything we have. Especially the person that gave us life.

            • 1 year ago
              Anonymous

              Peak third world cope

            • 1 year ago
              Anonymous

              lmao imagine having a mentality that defies logic because "gave life no mattah what ride or die". Sorry but I live in a first world country.

          • 1 year ago
            Anonymous

            you don't need to support her but you can't send her to the clink over two grand man, what the frick

            just cut contact and carry on with your life

    • 1 year ago
      Anonymous

      Seems reasonable.

    • 1 year ago
      Anonymous

      You in and emotional state right now I assume. Can you give a bit more context anon? Is she a decent enough besides the drugs, a mixed bag, or just a lost cause?

      • 1 year ago
        Anonymous

        She sold a man's property to get more crack. What the frick do you think, moron?

    • 1 year ago
      Anonymous

      Really depend on the type of relationship you have with your mother. I didn't had a god relationship with mine, even hit her with a baseball bat in the head one time, but I somewhat happy to see her sometime.

      Just don't get caught in the heat of the mpment

    • 1 year ago
      Anonymous

      if your mother is an addict and has been your entire life, burn that bridge. Even if its just for fun

      >T. son of an addict father

      it never gets better. If having kids doesnt change their behavior, nothing will

    • 1 year ago
      Anonymous

      Did you report your gun being stolen like that to the cops? If so, you don't have to narc to the feds, just let the local cops deal with her. You don't want that gun to be used in a crime and you get to get blamed for it.

    • 1 year ago
      Anonymous

      Get the police involved. Stolen gun, drugs, frick that shit even if it is your mom. Use it as a chance to re-evaluate your life too.

    • 1 year ago
      Anonymous

      Life is good, anon. I've been sick as a dog for most of a week, but nothing half as bad as .

    • 1 year ago
      Anonymous

      Blackmail her into fricking you first then do it

  2. 1 year ago
    Anonymous

    All I have is negative waves.
    My plans for weekend were ruined and it turns out that my gun license was issued with a mistake in it. Found it only few months after and never had problems with it until yesterday.
    Not American btw

  3. 1 year ago
    Anonymous

    Crap.

    • 1 year ago
      Anonymous

      i still cant believe this was the captain on the love boat

      • 1 year ago
        Anonymous

        Then you'll have even more trouble believing that before that he was a TV news writer for WJM in Minneapolis, Minnesota.

  4. 1 year ago
    Anonymous

    Hey its Jesus from Johnny got his gun.

    • 1 year ago
      Anonymous

      It's Faber from Eye of the Needle

  5. 1 year ago
    Anonymous

    I have a chronic stress condition where I only feel decent anywhere between 5 seconds and an hour after waking up. Then my throat clenches, my stomach turns, my blood pressure elevates, and even a slug of whiskey with chamomile tea and my blood pressure meds won't alleviate it. I've taken to sucking on tic-tacs in order to not vomit.
    I have a psych appointment in a month, but last time I saw my regular doctor I had a panic attack and turned into a jibbering functional moron. So I don't know.

    • 1 year ago
      Anonymous

      l-citrulline and l-arginine might help with the blood pressure some, helps bloodflow overall. Did you get a blood panel done to see if all your vitamins and shit are good? Or did your doc refer you straight to a psych to put you on lexapro and benzos because he didn't give a shit.

    • 1 year ago
      Anonymous

      Lexapro, then a psycfh which took 1.5 years since Covid clogged up the pipeline. Actually thinking lexapro, because the alcoholism is getting dire and really compounding the situation.
      Tried first to rule out an autoimmune thing or lymphotic.

      • 1 year ago
        Anonymous

        obv meant to respond to (You)

        l-citrulline and l-arginine might help with the blood pressure some, helps bloodflow overall. Did you get a blood panel done to see if all your vitamins and shit are good? Or did your doc refer you straight to a psych to put you on lexapro and benzos because he didn't give a shit.

    • 1 year ago
      Anonymous

      I'm gonna throw you a curveball. Ashwagandha in the jungle. Why not, right? If nothing else is doing the trick, what will this hurt?

      • 1 year ago
        Anonymous

        I was actually thinking psilocybic mushrooms or their tamer friend lion's mane, but I had a helluva hellish trip last time I tried to shake things loose with LSD.
        Last two light doses of mushrooms were pleasant, but not long lasting. Ketamine didn't really do anything. These are all off-label experiences.

        • 1 year ago
          Anonymous

          What you need is a legit shamanistic experience, you need a sitter for it.

          • 1 year ago
            Anonymous

            Probably, or detox/rehab and a stay at the grippy socks motel. Being in this condition must be what diabetics having an ongoing condition have to wade through paperwork in order to get proper care while being functionally moronic.
            You're in survival mode, I only get a glimpse of real life living for like 30 seconds after waking up. Feel like a savant compared to my working mental state.

            • 1 year ago
              Anonymous

              What you are looking for isn't a psych facility but treatment. Look up, "The Center: A Place of Hope" in Edmonds, WA.

  6. 1 year ago
    Anonymous

    Feeling lonely honestly

    • 1 year ago
      Lube

      You get used to it, try out hobby or play vidya

      • 1 year ago
        Anonymous

        Yeah I need to get a hobby to meet people. I do play vidya with a couple friends most Sundays but it's not like going out for a drink.

        • 1 year ago
          Anonymous

          what do you play? console or PC I mean

          I was the 3rd reply to your earlier post, bout the larp club

    • 1 year ago
      Anonymous

      Take an evening cooking class at a community college.

      You get used to it, try out hobby or play vidya

      >get used to it
      Forever incel.

    • 1 year ago
      Anonymous

      Me too man, still am but I found a vidya I really liked and joined one of those gay little regiments. Way down the line and I have a bunch of people I'd call friends to chat with if I wanted to

      consider it, I didn't think this would have worked but it sorta did. Still have the minor case of major depression and self loathing but y'know, one thing at a time

    • 1 year ago
      Anonymous

      Go to a VFW Hall. None in area, join Air National Guard. Too old? Can't help you. Anyone over thirty-five should man-up and stop wasting life over feelings. Unless you're female then go to Church.

      • 1 year ago
        Anonymous

        What if he's not a zogbot or a israelite-worshipper?

  7. 1 year ago
    Anonymous

    Working mandatory OT on my day off…. Feels bad man

    • 1 year ago
      Anonymous

      More money for guns atleast

    • 1 year ago
      Anonymous

      Sounds like it wasn't your day off then

      • 1 year ago
        Anonymous

        More money for guns atleast

        It would’ve been if we didn’t have a druggie break into a building last night and wreck stuff while high. I gotta assess damages.

        And probably going to use it to buy some 22 to take the pea-shooter out to the range

    • 1 year ago
      Anonymous

      Our overtime is all voluntary. Union regulations. It’s hard as frick to find the motivation to work weekends.

  8. 1 year ago
    Anonymous

    I’ve been worse. The insomnia is back though which isn’t great

  9. 1 year ago
    Anonymous

    The project I've been working on for two years at work is in danger of getting scrapped.

    • 1 year ago
      Anonymous

      Mine too lol. Actually it already is. I'm not allowed to tell anyone.

  10. 1 year ago
    Anonymous

    I have been rejected by my Ukrainian embassy to join the international legion this spring. I served years ago (paratroopers) but I had no combat deployment so they said nope.
    Kind of depressed right now. Just wanted to end my life doing something interesting or at least wanted to change the way I see my current life after that experience.
    Oh well. Back to the wagecage.

    • 1 year ago
      Anonymous

      I'm sure the West Papuans would take you, Anon.

    • 1 year ago
      Anonymous

      thats weird they denied you, i just had a fat frick from my old unit at hood send me a picture of him at kharkiv with the legion the other day, and he only ever went to korea. he says hes infantry but he might be bullshitting. try again anon

  11. 1 year ago
    Anonymous

    Vietnam hippie in WW2, make it make sense.

  12. 1 year ago
    Anonymous

    Doing alright. Been an absolutely beautiful couple of days, and got to make the most of it with some good snowshoeing and a bit of shooting. Rifle basic repairs are done, everything back together, though need to play with gas settings and maybe lubricate the thing because it's not going through ammo smoothly yet. Life may throw more curve balls soon, there is some tougher stuff happening as well, but overall things aren't bad right now.

  13. 1 year ago
    Anonymous

    Doing good. Have all the suppressors I want (right now) in the works, just booked a vacation and am generally enjoying newlywed life.

  14. 1 year ago
    Anonymous

    >try and start an exercise routine again
    >get a respiratory infection
    >for the third time in a row
    I'm getting kind of annoyed anons, I'll be honest.

    • 1 year ago
      Anonymous

      I feel you. I got lazy after the semester started and stopped going to the gym as much and meant to get back onto a schedule. Then I got bit to shit by bed bugs in a hotel and have been managing a bacterial infection since then. Now I haven't been able to run at all for two weeks because of scabies scare/fluid build-up/site aggravation/using steroid creams.

      The only good thing about this is that the minute I can go back to the gym, I'm not getting off the treadmill until I hit pre-affliction weight. And then some, out of spite.

  15. 1 year ago
    Anonymous

    Whatever you say babe.

  16. 1 year ago
    Anonymous

    [...]

    I'm pretty sure they would love to have an ex-military westerner, too. It's a huge legitimacy boost on the international stage if even a couple foreigners from highly developed countries come to join your cause.

  17. 1 year ago
    Anonymous

    I have a lot of work, but for the first time since a long time, I have a lot of friend around.
    I'm going on a date with an Irish girl tomoroow, but I don't know where I gonna take her at all.

    On a more /k/ topic, I just buy my first milsurp rifle, a M96 sweedish mauser. Tired of gun law in my country tho, I'm thinking about looking for something on the dark web, but I don"t know how to found a reliable website, don't want to be scamed...

    Be strongs brothers, bless you all

    • 1 year ago
      Anonymous

      Thanks ESLbro, I hope you have a good one.

      • 1 year ago
        Anonymous

        Dude, depending if you have some established time together or not, a picnic in the woods has always worked for me.

        I have a lot of work, but for the first time since a long time, I have a lot of friend around.
        I'm going on a date with an Irish girl tomoroow, but I don't know where I gonna take her at all.

        On a more /k/ topic, I just buy my first milsurp rifle, a M96 sweedish mauser. Tired of gun law in my country tho, I'm thinking about looking for something on the dark web, but I don"t know how to found a reliable website, don't want to be scamed...

        Be strongs brothers, bless you all

        >Just came home from it. We went to a bar and chat for 3h. I'm supposed to see her again next week end on a museum date.
        > But I have to problem guys. First, I let her choose the museum,and picked the Army Museum. I don't know how I should behave, since, you know, it's my topic of interest...
        >
        > Second problem is that, when we part away to get our metro, she just pretend to leave the place and got back to the bar. She went to a group of girls, some of whom I had already seen, probably friends.
        >Was I watched the whole time ? Is it something that girls do ? It does make me feel a little bad

        • 1 year ago
          Anonymous

          It’s possible she’s got some friends on overwatch. Could be anything. If you’re knowledgeable about the museum your going to she could have picked it because she guessed it’s something you know about and is looking forward to conversation or she’s interested herself.

          Either way I’d say don’t be pic related but don’t play dumb either. A lot of girls find knowledgeable men attractive. Be cool without being overbearing. Most importantly though; read the room/her.

          Hope it goes well. Cute Irish girl interested in military history sounds like a nice catch.

        • 1 year ago
          Anonymous

          Could be that she had friends for backup, it's a little weird and smells a bit of dishonesty but isn't inherently bad.

          As for the museum, maybe she's either picked up on your interests or gathered SIGINT/HUMINT on you. I think it's kinda flattering personally. Be honest of what you're into and keep things light. Keep your spaghetti in your pockets and your anecdotes with happy endings, no "everyone got slaughtered" stories.

    • 1 year ago
      Anonymous

      Dude, depending if you have some established time together or not, a picnic in the woods has always worked for me.

  18. 1 year ago
    Anonymous

    >No negative waves, I hope.

    tfw youre a pessimistic puddle

    • 1 year ago
      Anonymous

      Don't sweat it, bro. Even if you're pessimistic, take some time to do something you like and find something cool to appreciate for a bit, don't worry about the big picture all the time. I hope you have a good day.

  19. 1 year ago
    Anonymous

    Not good. Just bought a Ruger PCC earlier today and had to contact their customer service because the takedown block is out of spec, the adjustment know only moves if the block is loosened and the detent is now lodged in it's channel. FRICK!

  20. 1 year ago
    Anonymous

    got diagnosed with cancer last week, i feel terrible every day. life is hot garbage. probably gonna take my guns down to the local trash compactor and then jump off a bridge

    • 1 year ago
      Anonymous

      What cancer? Just saying, if you aren't using the guns, you know, I mean, I could...

  21. 1 year ago
    Anonymous

    Frick off c**t

  22. 1 year ago
    Anonymous

    >looks like we're gonna need to find another pontoon bridge

    • 1 year ago
      Anonymous

      The heist is an entire Maytag store.

      • 1 year ago
        Anonymous

        even the azov regiment makes an appearance

    • 1 year ago
      Anonymous

      ALL THOSE SMOOKING PONTOONS I LEFT FALLING AFTER ME

  23. 1 year ago
    Anonymous

    I don’t think I’m gonna make it, bros.

  24. 1 year ago
    Anonymous

    It's lonely out here. Watching the wind sweep across the plains day in and out, no one to share yourself with. The puppy helps. Recently dumped, hit to my confidence, dead end life I'm trying to crawl out of and a thousand bad habits and thoughts to defeat before I can do so but I'm battling every single one. At least, I'm about to hit the 100 pound mark on my weight loss, I would hope that I would look better though but maybe when I'm closer to the target I will, and, at least, I have a few legit adventures coming up in the third world but, doing day to day is hard. I'm getting some of the right men to keep me accountable in my life and establish a better lifestyle, though. I'll get where I want to go in life but I'm ready to not do it alone. I just want to be myself, pursue my goals singularly and aggressively, and be loved unconditionally for being so.

  25. 1 year ago
    Anonymous

    Just here to remind everyone not only did Girls und Panzer spoof the scene, they showed this movie as the one that makes the sensha-doka cry

    • 1 year ago
      Anonymous
      • 1 year ago
        Anonymous

        hnnng
        >icame.jpg

      • 1 year ago
        Anonymous

        >woof woof
        > that's my other dog impression.

    • 1 year ago
      Anonymous

      >Saki has an emotional reaction
      powerful

  26. 1 year ago
    Anonymous

    I'm drinking whine, eating cheese and catching some rays. All in all, can't complain- it's a beautiful day.

  27. 1 year ago
    Anonymous

    I love you Kelly. Oddball is loopy on some sort of brush from over in the hedgerow. He ate all the chocolate bars and put a nylon on his wiener and ran into the village for spare parts and wank.

  28. 1 year ago
    Anonymous

    Honestly pretty fricking shit man
    >Saved up and quit job in 2019 to go train as a commercial pilot
    >Got into hard to get into college program, was top of my class, doing well across the board and finally feeling confident etc.
    >Covid happened and fricked that whole thing for a couple of years
    >Had to move back in with dad in fricking LA (he himself isn't here by choice either, work just got him stuck)
    >Now I can't find an apartment to move back out of this shithole state, know where I want to go but remote work homosexuals are taking everything and nobody wants to rent to me with a history gap and no current income even though I can pay a year of rent up front
    >Parents busting my balls constantly to get the house sold for them (mom decided to go her own separate way a few years back despite being in her 70s and barely able to take care of herself) but I can't do shit to deal with all of the legal/financial aspects or clearing out all of their shit
    >Also have to deal with both of them constantly b***hing to me about the other one in between b***hing at me about me, or my useless pothead brothers, or whatever
    >Friends have all drifted away, mostly married with kids etc., ghosted me when my ex and I split
    >Bored out of my mind, nothing to do on a Saturday night in LA unless you're a gigachad or a degen
    >Ended up with this European QT in my life, she went through some bad shit with an ex-husband who beat her and stuff, somehow resulted in her crashing on my couch for the last few months on and off
    >Really like this chick, totally my physical type and I feel comfortable around her in a way I usually don't with women etc.
    >She acts like my GF and constantly flirts and makes innuendos and stuff but always backs away when the topic of actually hooking up comes up
    >She's been at a friend's place for the last few days, don't really trust that she isn't out getting fricked by him or other dudes
    >My usually neat and tidy room is an absolute clusterfrick because of her shit

    • 1 year ago
      Anonymous

      Continued
      >Dealing with a frickton of stress overall, to a crippling degree
      >Can't even do drugs or see a therapist like everybody else in this shithole because I'm still trying to be a pilot and can't have that shit on my record (plus no drug I've ever tried has had the desired effect on me)
      >Bad anxiety too, and LA's the worst place on Earth to have it, place is fricking Chad central and everybody else is on coke or whatever so they're all super confident and social and make me look like some pathetic incel in situations where I'd do fine anywhere else
      >Speaking of anxiety, the girl in question keeps seeming like she's dropping hints that I should just chad up and make a move on her despite her saying otherwise that she doesn't want to hook up, but I've got way too much anxiety about taking that risk, especially because her life is genuinely fricked if I drive her off with it
      >Oh yeah, also broke as frick in large part because everybody always expects me to drive everywhere for everything and I drive a truck that I definitely didn't get with fricking $5 a gallon gas in mind
      Basically everything just really fricking sucks right now. Wish I could just go to a bar or club or something at least but doing that shit alone sucks and everything around here is either degen rap bullshit or hipster bullshit where I won't have anything in common with anybody, plus I can't even bring a girl back to this disaster of a place if I meet one.

    • 1 year ago
      Anonymous

      Continued
      >Dealing with a frickton of stress overall, to a crippling degree
      >Can't even do drugs or see a therapist like everybody else in this shithole because I'm still trying to be a pilot and can't have that shit on my record (plus no drug I've ever tried has had the desired effect on me)
      >Bad anxiety too, and LA's the worst place on Earth to have it, place is fricking Chad central and everybody else is on coke or whatever so they're all super confident and social and make me look like some pathetic incel in situations where I'd do fine anywhere else
      >Speaking of anxiety, the girl in question keeps seeming like she's dropping hints that I should just chad up and make a move on her despite her saying otherwise that she doesn't want to hook up, but I've got way too much anxiety about taking that risk, especially because her life is genuinely fricked if I drive her off with it
      >Oh yeah, also broke as frick in large part because everybody always expects me to drive everywhere for everything and I drive a truck that I definitely didn't get with fricking $5 a gallon gas in mind
      Basically everything just really fricking sucks right now. Wish I could just go to a bar or club or something at least but doing that shit alone sucks and everything around here is either degen rap bullshit or hipster bullshit where I won't have anything in common with anybody, plus I can't even bring a girl back to this disaster of a place if I meet one.

      That girl sounds like she's just using you. Make the move, and if it doesn't work, kick her out and get on with your life. Also, try and find a hobby where you socialize, preferably a sport of some kind with a low barrier of entry like Disc Golf.

      If you absolutely want to do some drugs, then do mushrooms/truffles (but do it right). It'll alleviate your anxiety and help you figure out what is actually important to you. Remember to take care of yourself; Eat healthy and exercise - Lift weights and row on a machine, maintain a daily schedule and remember to clean your guns and shoot them often.

      • 1 year ago
        Anonymous

        https://i.imgur.com/YrsRexG.png

        [...]
        You can't make this girl clean up after herself? A messy room at home does nothing to help you when you're trying to clean up your life. I don't know the full details about this girl living with you, but can you get her to make up her mind on wanting to settle down or move out? If she's fricking things up for you by not committing or playing with your mind, then you have to be willing to kick her out. Returning to a shitty life is only one step above threatening suicide in a relationship, in terms of keeping an awful relationship going.

        Can you sell or swap the truck on craigslist or something? There's got to be some sedan some guy in a midlife crisis willing to part with that will double your gas mileage. Also, tell your friends or whoever's riding in your truck to either pay for gas money if you're driving them or get a bus pass. Taxiing is shit you do on the runway, not in your truck.

        Can't help you there with trying to get the house sold. With everyone moving out, California's got to have a shit seller's market right now. Being in L.A. helps, but I don't know anything else that might bump up your chances. Maybe some realtor group would be interested in helping you work out the legal shit, but I have no idea.

        As for your career, do you still need to finish your college degree before you can continue with your flight hours training? Is this something you can only pick up after you settle the legal/financial issues with your house and family? If so, can you take your credits and apply them elsewhere and get a job with whatever major you can cobble together with them? Community colleges can help patch up holes, but it might be worth looking into things before the beginning of the Fall semester in late August.

        Hope something I've said was helpful bro. You can get out of L.A. dude, I believe in you.

        [...]

        The situation with this chick is pretty complicated and fricked up and unfortunately I'm not enough of a bastard to kick her out. She will literally end up homeless on the street 100% if I do - and that's not just conjecture, that's where she was before I took her in (and to be clear, she's not some random homeless chick, she was part of my friends circle before all this shit happened to her) and I'd at least like to get things to the point where she's got an alternative if she has to leave my place, she has family back in Europe and if I can help her get a passport she can at least go home if worse comes to worse.

        She also isn't holding shit over me or anything, it's just me understanding the reality of the situation, I think better than she does too - she tries to get shit done on her own and fails miserably pretty much every time, she's really traumatized by all of this shit she's been through and is just way too much of a ball of anxiety to do it without having her hand held. I also get why she's hesitant to get into anything, she's been through some really bad shit including at least a couple of rapes and given her state I can understand that she just wouldn't be capable of it at the moment. She's also said to me that she's really afraid that if she hooks up with me she'll end up devoting her life to me, giving up on her own goals, and becoming completely dependent and maybe that's the truth. She's also, however, told me that if I were a douchebag she could frick and ghost without feeling bad she already would've let me frick her, and that's a pretty shitty thing to hear.

        The really fricked thing, though, is that she's a really nice, likeable, fun person when she's not in these anxiety spirals, and good wife material if she can get past them. She's an amazing cook, she cleans (but then dumps her bullshit on top of the newly spotless surfaces), she's really fricking funny, smart as hell (Cambridge grad), and super hot.

        • 1 year ago
          Anonymous

          That woman is toxic waste. Get away as fast as you possibly can. You are seriously in for a world of shit if you keep going down the road you’re on.

          • 1 year ago
            Anonymous

            https://i.imgur.com/DXCjgBJ.jpg

            You don't NEED 4wd unless you're moving to bumbuck nowhere, Colorado Oblast. But first make good use of it and:

            Help your dad sort his shit out. Maybe treat him to to some buca di beppo first to schmooze things over. From now on every sunday is "unfrick the house day" and you two will go to the property and... well, unfrick the house until it's not fricked anymore. After taking everything remotely valuable you probably want to hire some mexican muscle to help with cleanup.

            As for the girl, right now she's sucking dicks out of sheer boredom. If you kick her out she will be sucking dicks for rent. She's probably sucked dicks for pocket money or drugs in the past. What's the difference really?
            Let's recap:
            DAMAGED GOODS
            DOESN'T PUT OUT
            DOESN'T CLEAN AFTER HERSELF
            DOESN'T WANT TO HAVE ANYTHING TO DO WITH YOU
            SHE'S A PHYSICAL AND PSYCHIC wienerBLOCKING VAMPIRE THAT'S DOING NOTHING BUT FRICKING YOU OVER
            YOU CAN'T FIX HER AND SHE'S JUMPING SHIP THE MINUTE SHE'S REMOTELY SORTED HER SHIT ANYWAY

            You'd be better off orbiting an onlyfans ho. At least it would spare you the emotional torture. When Der Coomer has a healthier relationship with women than you do, you know it's bad. AND YES IT'S THAT BAD.

            And lastly GTFO LA. The feeling of being a small autistic fish in a big chad pond is crushing your soul.
            You've got a lot of shit to deal with first but a good way to shake the feeling off would be a trip to Ecuador or somesuch cesspool, where you will be treated like a demigod walking on earth.

            [...]
            [...]
            It sounds like you're looking to her for love, and that's why you keep justifying what you do for her. We've all done that at some point when we've been at low places in our lives and needing some kind of support. But what she is "giving" you isn't support, but leeching.

            If romantic love is a two-way street, then she wouldn't sit around and mope and be anxious all day. Rather, she would actually help you with whatever shit there is around the house to do. I mean, she'd go full bore, and stop all the pity parties altogether. She's not doing that, so she shows that she's using you.

            Your one priority is yourself. First, you need to take care of your desire to fly planes. That market is wide open right now and as long as you avoid the vax, you'll be good. Keep working toward that.

            She is NOT your priority. She has a lot going for her and she's not taking advantage of it. Being a Cambridge grad is a ticket to high-paying jobs. Why exactly isn't she using it? And why won't she hit up the consulate of her own nation (you're in LA, it's there) to get herself a replacement passport? That can be done almost instantly, so her "need" for a US one is bullshit.

            That woman has you wrapped around her little finger and she knows it. She likes fricking with your head. It's a power trip. *IF* it's true that she's been with nothing but abusers, then she's abusing you out of spite, and she doesn't have to get violent. And she's using sex (with some flirting) to get back at you for them.

            You've already done too much for this chick. She needs to get off her ass and take care of herself. She has the ability to do so, she just refuses to. Why should she when she's given everything for free?

            Do you have a plan for getting to the flight school you want to go to? If so, are you following that plan?

            Follow this advice.

            Seriously, unless this is some creative writing project I find it difficult to believe anyone would read what you have written and think - yeah, keep on doing what you're doing.

            I understand wanting to help someone out.
            I also understand a girl being unimaginably attractive to you.

            But come the frick on. You write like an adult who has his shit together with tangible goals and real-life problems. So act like one and look at the facts in the above post

            referenced here

            https://i.imgur.com/DXCjgBJ.jpg

            You don't NEED 4wd unless you're moving to bumbuck nowhere, Colorado Oblast. But first make good use of it and:

            Help your dad sort his shit out. Maybe treat him to to some buca di beppo first to schmooze things over. From now on every sunday is "unfrick the house day" and you two will go to the property and... well, unfrick the house until it's not fricked anymore. After taking everything remotely valuable you probably want to hire some mexican muscle to help with cleanup.

            As for the girl, right now she's sucking dicks out of sheer boredom. If you kick her out she will be sucking dicks for rent. She's probably sucked dicks for pocket money or drugs in the past. What's the difference really?
            Let's recap:
            DAMAGED GOODS
            DOESN'T PUT OUT
            DOESN'T CLEAN AFTER HERSELF
            DOESN'T WANT TO HAVE ANYTHING TO DO WITH YOU
            SHE'S A PHYSICAL AND PSYCHIC wienerBLOCKING VAMPIRE THAT'S DOING NOTHING BUT FRICKING YOU OVER
            YOU CAN'T FIX HER AND SHE'S JUMPING SHIP THE MINUTE SHE'S REMOTELY SORTED HER SHIT ANYWAY

            You'd be better off orbiting an onlyfans ho. At least it would spare you the emotional torture. When Der Coomer has a healthier relationship with women than you do, you know it's bad. AND YES IT'S THAT BAD.

            And lastly GTFO LA. The feeling of being a small autistic fish in a big chad pond is crushing your soul.
            You've got a lot of shit to deal with first but a good way to shake the feeling off would be a trip to Ecuador or somesuch cesspool, where you will be treated like a demigod walking on earth.

            DAMAGED GOODS
            DOESN'T PUT OUT
            DOESN'T CLEAN AFTER HERSELF
            DOESN'T WANT TO HAVE ANYTHING TO DO WITH YOU
            SHE'S A PHYSICAL AND PSYCHIC wienerBLOCKING VAMPIRE THAT'S DOING NOTHING BUT FRICKING YOU OVER
            YOU CAN'T FIX HER AND SHE'S JUMPING SHIP THE MINUTE SHE'S REMOTELY SORTED HER SHIT ANYWAY

            I know I sound like a dick but I'm a fresh anon with a fresh pair of eyes and I wholeheartedly agree with the earlier posters.

            I don't know man but in my opinion, you're being a total doormat. I know you have said the situation would be understandable with full context but that is not necessary when you have such clear concise storytelling as you have given so far. I cannot imagine a story that would make me change my opinion. Maybe if she was afraid to leave your apartment. Then, yeah, shelter her until/after you figure out if she's hiding from the fricking cops or even more malicious members within our society. Besides that - her coming and going freely in your place? Yeah, no.

      • 1 year ago
        Anonymous

        https://i.imgur.com/YrsRexG.png

        [...]
        You can't make this girl clean up after herself? A messy room at home does nothing to help you when you're trying to clean up your life. I don't know the full details about this girl living with you, but can you get her to make up her mind on wanting to settle down or move out? If she's fricking things up for you by not committing or playing with your mind, then you have to be willing to kick her out. Returning to a shitty life is only one step above threatening suicide in a relationship, in terms of keeping an awful relationship going.

        Can you sell or swap the truck on craigslist or something? There's got to be some sedan some guy in a midlife crisis willing to part with that will double your gas mileage. Also, tell your friends or whoever's riding in your truck to either pay for gas money if you're driving them or get a bus pass. Taxiing is shit you do on the runway, not in your truck.

        Can't help you there with trying to get the house sold. With everyone moving out, California's got to have a shit seller's market right now. Being in L.A. helps, but I don't know anything else that might bump up your chances. Maybe some realtor group would be interested in helping you work out the legal shit, but I have no idea.

        As for your career, do you still need to finish your college degree before you can continue with your flight hours training? Is this something you can only pick up after you settle the legal/financial issues with your house and family? If so, can you take your credits and apply them elsewhere and get a job with whatever major you can cobble together with them? Community colleges can help patch up holes, but it might be worth looking into things before the beginning of the Fall semester in late August.

        Hope something I've said was helpful bro. You can get out of L.A. dude, I believe in you.

        [...]

        Gonna have to continue again.

        The house sale itself isn't the issue, it's clearing 30 years of bullshit out that's the problem. My dad is old and depressed and won't do shit, and to some degree I can't blame him but this shit has to get done before he and my mom run out of money. The house is worth bank too, buying it was the one good financial decision my folks ever made and it's easily north of 2 mil even with the market coming down recently.

        As for education, I just need flight hours. I've found the exact school I want to do it with and it's just a matter of getting there. I can't afford to stay in LA long term, nor do I want to, and flight training here is expensive as frick and terrible (way too much traffic, wastes hours of lessons) so there's no point trying to do it here.

        As for the truck, not an option to sell, I make good use of it and need the 4WD once I move back out of state.

        >nothing to do on a Saturday night in LA
        This line tells me you are the fricking problem. You are 45 minute drive from most types of terrain on the planet, just fricking pick one and go outside and have a kickass time you sad sack of shit. Kick out the prostitute and steal the house from your parents and sell it to move to the middle of nowhere or whatever you want. Use the money you have for rent to pay the property taxes as they arrive from the assessor and make adverse possession moves against your parents
        you are the cause of all of your problems and unless you change you will languish in this stasis forever

        I get out and do PrepHole and /k/ stuff, it's just solitary, you know? I just want to do social shit like I used to, meet people, maybe get laid, etc. LA's just a nightmare for it, I know that's hard to believe but I've lived other places and I was fine there, people here are just so fricking cliquey and elitist and there are very few bars or clubs that play music I'm into or anything. Maybe I'll just go out to the one fricking country bar in the whole region but it's kinda lame.

        • 1 year ago
          Anonymous

          You don't NEED 4wd unless you're moving to bumbuck nowhere, Colorado Oblast. But first make good use of it and:

          Help your dad sort his shit out. Maybe treat him to to some buca di beppo first to schmooze things over. From now on every sunday is "unfrick the house day" and you two will go to the property and... well, unfrick the house until it's not fricked anymore. After taking everything remotely valuable you probably want to hire some mexican muscle to help with cleanup.

          As for the girl, right now she's sucking dicks out of sheer boredom. If you kick her out she will be sucking dicks for rent. She's probably sucked dicks for pocket money or drugs in the past. What's the difference really?
          Let's recap:
          DAMAGED GOODS
          DOESN'T PUT OUT
          DOESN'T CLEAN AFTER HERSELF
          DOESN'T WANT TO HAVE ANYTHING TO DO WITH YOU
          SHE'S A PHYSICAL AND PSYCHIC wienerBLOCKING VAMPIRE THAT'S DOING NOTHING BUT FRICKING YOU OVER
          YOU CAN'T FIX HER AND SHE'S JUMPING SHIP THE MINUTE SHE'S REMOTELY SORTED HER SHIT ANYWAY

          You'd be better off orbiting an onlyfans ho. At least it would spare you the emotional torture. When Der Coomer has a healthier relationship with women than you do, you know it's bad. AND YES IT'S THAT BAD.

          And lastly GTFO LA. The feeling of being a small autistic fish in a big chad pond is crushing your soul.
          You've got a lot of shit to deal with first but a good way to shake the feeling off would be a trip to Ecuador or somesuch cesspool, where you will be treated like a demigod walking on earth.

          • 1 year ago
            Anonymous

            >trip to Ecuador or somesuch cesspool
            I have step-family down there. Americans aren't treated as demi-gods there, and the women are just as shitty as they are in LA.

            • 1 year ago
              Anonymous

              I guess your mileage might vary if you're not 6'2 and white.

              • 1 year ago
                Anonymous

                My step-family is taller than me, and I'm almost 6'6", and white. Women are no different in the beaner nations than they are here.

              • 1 year ago
                Anonymous

                >you are 6'6"
                >a bunch of beaners are taller than you
                >you're white

              • 1 year ago
                Anonymous

                >6'6"
                No wonder, that's literally Andre the Giant-tier over there. At 6'3" I towered everybody on the Santiago da Chili metro. Frick even Buenos Aires is manlet central and they're significantly less goblin-like.

                The essence of women might be the same everywhere but your value as a partner or sexual liaison depends entirely on the context. Yeah silver spoon castizas can be an absolute wienertease but if you're rolling that high you're literally dealing with their 1%. Such girls wouldn't give you the time of the day in LA.

        • 1 year ago
          Anonymous

          Ok listen to me Black person, the pilot job market imploded last year or so. Everybody and their grandmother is looking for experienced pilots.
          You need to get that experience. ASAP. It doesn't matter if you have to live out of your car or if you have to move 3 states away, you need to get those hours. Here's what you want: Hours, IFR, multi-engine and multi-crew. In that order. Meaning a Single-engine IFR job BTFO's a multi-engine VFR job. A job where you do 100 hours VFR a month beats an IFR job with 10 hours per month.

          Hold yourself to a professional standard. Even if you end up working for a cowboy outfit where everyone's kinda moronic, YOU need to keep it together. Write your own checklists if you have to, kick off that A/P, read and learn your machine. It's gonna be tough work, and it won't be glamorous, but you're gonna fricking make it.

    • 1 year ago
      Anonymous

      Continued
      >Dealing with a frickton of stress overall, to a crippling degree
      >Can't even do drugs or see a therapist like everybody else in this shithole because I'm still trying to be a pilot and can't have that shit on my record (plus no drug I've ever tried has had the desired effect on me)
      >Bad anxiety too, and LA's the worst place on Earth to have it, place is fricking Chad central and everybody else is on coke or whatever so they're all super confident and social and make me look like some pathetic incel in situations where I'd do fine anywhere else
      >Speaking of anxiety, the girl in question keeps seeming like she's dropping hints that I should just chad up and make a move on her despite her saying otherwise that she doesn't want to hook up, but I've got way too much anxiety about taking that risk, especially because her life is genuinely fricked if I drive her off with it
      >Oh yeah, also broke as frick in large part because everybody always expects me to drive everywhere for everything and I drive a truck that I definitely didn't get with fricking $5 a gallon gas in mind
      Basically everything just really fricking sucks right now. Wish I could just go to a bar or club or something at least but doing that shit alone sucks and everything around here is either degen rap bullshit or hipster bullshit where I won't have anything in common with anybody, plus I can't even bring a girl back to this disaster of a place if I meet one.

      You can't make this girl clean up after herself? A messy room at home does nothing to help you when you're trying to clean up your life. I don't know the full details about this girl living with you, but can you get her to make up her mind on wanting to settle down or move out? If she's fricking things up for you by not committing or playing with your mind, then you have to be willing to kick her out. Returning to a shitty life is only one step above threatening suicide in a relationship, in terms of keeping an awful relationship going.

      Can you sell or swap the truck on craigslist or something? There's got to be some sedan some guy in a midlife crisis willing to part with that will double your gas mileage. Also, tell your friends or whoever's riding in your truck to either pay for gas money if you're driving them or get a bus pass. Taxiing is shit you do on the runway, not in your truck.

      Can't help you there with trying to get the house sold. With everyone moving out, California's got to have a shit seller's market right now. Being in L.A. helps, but I don't know anything else that might bump up your chances. Maybe some realtor group would be interested in helping you work out the legal shit, but I have no idea.

      As for your career, do you still need to finish your college degree before you can continue with your flight hours training? Is this something you can only pick up after you settle the legal/financial issues with your house and family? If so, can you take your credits and apply them elsewhere and get a job with whatever major you can cobble together with them? Community colleges can help patch up holes, but it might be worth looking into things before the beginning of the Fall semester in late August.

      Hope something I've said was helpful bro. You can get out of L.A. dude, I believe in you.

    • 1 year ago
      Anonymous

      >nothing to do on a Saturday night in LA
      This line tells me you are the fricking problem. You are 45 minute drive from most types of terrain on the planet, just fricking pick one and go outside and have a kickass time you sad sack of shit. Kick out the prostitute and steal the house from your parents and sell it to move to the middle of nowhere or whatever you want. Use the money you have for rent to pay the property taxes as they arrive from the assessor and make adverse possession moves against your parents
      you are the cause of all of your problems and unless you change you will languish in this stasis forever

    • 1 year ago
      Anonymous

      Continued
      >Dealing with a frickton of stress overall, to a crippling degree
      >Can't even do drugs or see a therapist like everybody else in this shithole because I'm still trying to be a pilot and can't have that shit on my record (plus no drug I've ever tried has had the desired effect on me)
      >Bad anxiety too, and LA's the worst place on Earth to have it, place is fricking Chad central and everybody else is on coke or whatever so they're all super confident and social and make me look like some pathetic incel in situations where I'd do fine anywhere else
      >Speaking of anxiety, the girl in question keeps seeming like she's dropping hints that I should just chad up and make a move on her despite her saying otherwise that she doesn't want to hook up, but I've got way too much anxiety about taking that risk, especially because her life is genuinely fricked if I drive her off with it
      >Oh yeah, also broke as frick in large part because everybody always expects me to drive everywhere for everything and I drive a truck that I definitely didn't get with fricking $5 a gallon gas in mind
      Basically everything just really fricking sucks right now. Wish I could just go to a bar or club or something at least but doing that shit alone sucks and everything around here is either degen rap bullshit or hipster bullshit where I won't have anything in common with anybody, plus I can't even bring a girl back to this disaster of a place if I meet one.

      [...]
      [...]
      The situation with this chick is pretty complicated and fricked up and unfortunately I'm not enough of a bastard to kick her out. She will literally end up homeless on the street 100% if I do - and that's not just conjecture, that's where she was before I took her in (and to be clear, she's not some random homeless chick, she was part of my friends circle before all this shit happened to her) and I'd at least like to get things to the point where she's got an alternative if she has to leave my place, she has family back in Europe and if I can help her get a passport she can at least go home if worse comes to worse.

      She also isn't holding shit over me or anything, it's just me understanding the reality of the situation, I think better than she does too - she tries to get shit done on her own and fails miserably pretty much every time, she's really traumatized by all of this shit she's been through and is just way too much of a ball of anxiety to do it without having her hand held. I also get why she's hesitant to get into anything, she's been through some really bad shit including at least a couple of rapes and given her state I can understand that she just wouldn't be capable of it at the moment. She's also said to me that she's really afraid that if she hooks up with me she'll end up devoting her life to me, giving up on her own goals, and becoming completely dependent and maybe that's the truth. She's also, however, told me that if I were a douchebag she could frick and ghost without feeling bad she already would've let me frick her, and that's a pretty shitty thing to hear.

      The really fricked thing, though, is that she's a really nice, likeable, fun person when she's not in these anxiety spirals, and good wife material if she can get past them. She's an amazing cook, she cleans (but then dumps her bullshit on top of the newly spotless surfaces), she's really fricking funny, smart as hell (Cambridge grad), and super hot.

      [...]
      [...]
      Gonna have to continue again.

      The house sale itself isn't the issue, it's clearing 30 years of bullshit out that's the problem. My dad is old and depressed and won't do shit, and to some degree I can't blame him but this shit has to get done before he and my mom run out of money. The house is worth bank too, buying it was the one good financial decision my folks ever made and it's easily north of 2 mil even with the market coming down recently.

      As for education, I just need flight hours. I've found the exact school I want to do it with and it's just a matter of getting there. I can't afford to stay in LA long term, nor do I want to, and flight training here is expensive as frick and terrible (way too much traffic, wastes hours of lessons) so there's no point trying to do it here.

      As for the truck, not an option to sell, I make good use of it and need the 4WD once I move back out of state.

      [...]
      I get out and do PrepHole and /k/ stuff, it's just solitary, you know? I just want to do social shit like I used to, meet people, maybe get laid, etc. LA's just a nightmare for it, I know that's hard to believe but I've lived other places and I was fine there, people here are just so fricking cliquey and elitist and there are very few bars or clubs that play music I'm into or anything. Maybe I'll just go out to the one fricking country bar in the whole region but it's kinda lame.

      This chick of yours raises so many red flags that I don't even know where to begin. She's using you and she knows it. If hooking up with you causes her to give up on her own goals, then you don't need to be a part of her life at all. Hooking up with you should mean that it makes it easier to get to her goals, and that would mean the same for you. She's using you and is lying to you.

      If she's a Cambridge grad, then why hasn't she used their alumni house network to get herself a fricking job?

      If she doesn't have a passport to get home to Europe, why doesn't she go to her nation's embassy, to get her a flight home? If she's illegal, ICE will help her out with that. That part makes no sense. How is it your job to get her a passport?

      Also, don't fall for the trap of marrying her, just so she can stay in the country. One of my friends did that with a Ukrainian and got fricked over by her.

      You don't need her emotional baggage. You're not her emotional sponge. Kick her the frick out and then work like hell to get out of LA, and go to the school you want to go to.

      And if you can't get an apartment, then rent a room for a while. There are plenty of nice little old ladies that rent out rooms for a good price and that'll get you to where you need to go.

      Also, frick your friends for not giving you gas money, or taking you out on a Saturday night. They sound like leeches, not friends.

      • 1 year ago
        Anonymous

        Yeah, believe me, I know she's a fricking disaster. Some of the stuff is understandable with knowledge of the whole situation though, and while I'm not gonna give her whole life story it's not as ridiculous as it seems. A lot of shit is just because she's got insane levels of anxiety though, it's not even so much having to do shit for her as it is kicking her in the ass to get shit done instead of wallowing in her own anxiety and depression.

        The passport thing is in progress, and she's totally legal, moved here with her ex-husband and has a green card etc., and apparently could actually get a US passport easily if she wanted because of the circumstances. (Married an American and then left after 8 years due to abuse, which fwiw I have solid verification of, she's not making it up.) Definitely no chance of her trying to marry me for citizenship or anything, and she wants to go back too, but not until her divorce is resolved, and this is where shit really goes off the rails - CA is a 50/50 state and she thinks she's owed more after what the dude put her through, and morally maybe she's right but I don't think it's worth the nightmare it'll be to sue him and she should just move on with her life, but it's the one thing she's clinging to after giving so much up for this dude.

        She did have a job before leaving her ex and then everything went to shit - ex immediately drained the joint bank account, she had to move in with this other dude who stole all her stuff including computer, passports, etc. to try and keep her from leaving and then lost all of it, etc.

        Frick, this is gonna be a two-parter again

        • 1 year ago
          Anonymous

          [...]
          >Also, frick your friends for not giving you gas money, or taking you out on a Saturday night. They sound like leeches, not friends.
          It's not even really that, it's mostly family shit sucking up all my gas etc. It's pathetic but I don't really have friends anymore, at least not ones I see in person, everybody scattered and like I said before most are married with kids. The only "friends" I have left around here are druggie degenerate losers who never do anything except sit around at home and get high and I want nothing to do with any of that.

          Honestly the thing that's really fricking me up about this whole situation is that she's just so fricking attractive to me. My taste is kinda niche and it's exceptionally rare for me to find a girl I'm so thoroughly attracted to, and it's not just her body or face, it's the way she dresses and styles herself, her attitude toward sex and the way she likes to have it, stuff like that, and I've just never met a girl who matches up with my preferences so well and it sucks thinking/knowing that I probably never will again.

          There's just weird shit that doesn't really match up with a girl who's totally playing me either. Maybe I'm stupid but she touches me pretty often, her body language shows attraction, I've seen (and smelled!) her get horny when talking sex with me, she's shown me nudes she did back in the day, she's fallen asleep with her head on my shoulder before, and all that shit that in any other situation would be screaming for me to frick her, but then she turns around and tells me not to make a move on her a few minutes later. It's fricking weird and my best interpretation is that she actually DOES want to do stuff but is willfully depriving herself of that satisfaction out of some depressive self-destructive bullshit or something, and that's backed up by her telling me in the past that she does that in other ways, like forcing herself not to eat or sleep when she has unfinished business.

          Frick...

          [...]
          [...]
          Fricking hell it became a three-parter.

          Anyway, at this point I'm not expecting anything, I'm just doing it because I can't live with myself if I let her go to hell when I could've prevented it and I guess as some kind of penance for things I've done in the past, plus I've just got her family relying on me and her dad is a good dude I don't want to let down. My plan at this point is to continue searching for a place and if I find one I'm gone, but as long as I'm still here I'll try to get her the frick out of here and back to her family where she can start putting her life back together, and maybe if we're in better places and still single a few years down the line something will work out.

          It sounds like you're looking to her for love, and that's why you keep justifying what you do for her. We've all done that at some point when we've been at low places in our lives and needing some kind of support. But what she is "giving" you isn't support, but leeching.

          If romantic love is a two-way street, then she wouldn't sit around and mope and be anxious all day. Rather, she would actually help you with whatever shit there is around the house to do. I mean, she'd go full bore, and stop all the pity parties altogether. She's not doing that, so she shows that she's using you.

          Your one priority is yourself. First, you need to take care of your desire to fly planes. That market is wide open right now and as long as you avoid the vax, you'll be good. Keep working toward that.

          She is NOT your priority. She has a lot going for her and she's not taking advantage of it. Being a Cambridge grad is a ticket to high-paying jobs. Why exactly isn't she using it? And why won't she hit up the consulate of her own nation (you're in LA, it's there) to get herself a replacement passport? That can be done almost instantly, so her "need" for a US one is bullshit.

          That woman has you wrapped around her little finger and she knows it. She likes fricking with your head. It's a power trip. *IF* it's true that she's been with nothing but abusers, then she's abusing you out of spite, and she doesn't have to get violent. And she's using sex (with some flirting) to get back at you for them.

          You've already done too much for this chick. She needs to get off her ass and take care of herself. She has the ability to do so, she just refuses to. Why should she when she's given everything for free?

          Do you have a plan for getting to the flight school you want to go to? If so, are you following that plan?

          • 1 year ago
            Anonymous

            >IF* it's true that she's been with nothing but abusers, then she's abusing you out of spite
            I did this to a really nice girl after dating a crazy borderline b***h. Made her life hell for no good reason and not long after I dumped her she got fat and became a dyke.
            sorry Gail lol

          • 1 year ago
            Anonymous

            https://i.imgur.com/DXCjgBJ.jpg

            You don't NEED 4wd unless you're moving to bumbuck nowhere, Colorado Oblast. But first make good use of it and:

            Help your dad sort his shit out. Maybe treat him to to some buca di beppo first to schmooze things over. From now on every sunday is "unfrick the house day" and you two will go to the property and... well, unfrick the house until it's not fricked anymore. After taking everything remotely valuable you probably want to hire some mexican muscle to help with cleanup.

            As for the girl, right now she's sucking dicks out of sheer boredom. If you kick her out she will be sucking dicks for rent. She's probably sucked dicks for pocket money or drugs in the past. What's the difference really?
            Let's recap:
            DAMAGED GOODS
            DOESN'T PUT OUT
            DOESN'T CLEAN AFTER HERSELF
            DOESN'T WANT TO HAVE ANYTHING TO DO WITH YOU
            SHE'S A PHYSICAL AND PSYCHIC wienerBLOCKING VAMPIRE THAT'S DOING NOTHING BUT FRICKING YOU OVER
            YOU CAN'T FIX HER AND SHE'S JUMPING SHIP THE MINUTE SHE'S REMOTELY SORTED HER SHIT ANYWAY

            You'd be better off orbiting an onlyfans ho. At least it would spare you the emotional torture. When Der Coomer has a healthier relationship with women than you do, you know it's bad. AND YES IT'S THAT BAD.

            And lastly GTFO LA. The feeling of being a small autistic fish in a big chad pond is crushing your soul.
            You've got a lot of shit to deal with first but a good way to shake the feeling off would be a trip to Ecuador or somesuch cesspool, where you will be treated like a demigod walking on earth.

            [...]
            [...]
            Follow this advice.

            Seriously, unless this is some creative writing project I find it difficult to believe anyone would read what you have written and think - yeah, keep on doing what you're doing.

            I understand wanting to help someone out.
            I also understand a girl being unimaginably attractive to you.

            But come the frick on. You write like an adult who has his shit together with tangible goals and real-life problems. So act like one and look at the facts in the above post

            referenced here

            [...]
            DAMAGED GOODS
            DOESN'T PUT OUT
            DOESN'T CLEAN AFTER HERSELF
            DOESN'T WANT TO HAVE ANYTHING TO DO WITH YOU
            SHE'S A PHYSICAL AND PSYCHIC wienerBLOCKING VAMPIRE THAT'S DOING NOTHING BUT FRICKING YOU OVER
            YOU CAN'T FIX HER AND SHE'S JUMPING SHIP THE MINUTE SHE'S REMOTELY SORTED HER SHIT ANYWAY

            I know I sound like a dick but I'm a fresh anon with a fresh pair of eyes and I wholeheartedly agree with the earlier posters.

            I don't know man but in my opinion, you're being a total doormat. I know you have said the situation would be understandable with full context but that is not necessary when you have such clear concise storytelling as you have given so far. I cannot imagine a story that would make me change my opinion. Maybe if she was afraid to leave your apartment. Then, yeah, shelter her until/after you figure out if she's hiding from the fricking cops or even more malicious members within our society. Besides that - her coming and going freely in your place? Yeah, no.

            fwiw I've mostly talked about my grievances with the situation and was pretty bummed out last night, but there are good sides. She actually *does* do quite a bit of housework and is gradually clearing up the mess. It also has to be pointed out that the mess is a result of her trying to cram all of her remaining worldly possessions into a small space in a room that was already full.

            She also is out there trying to get shit done herself right now. Something I didn't really clarify earlier is that my house is somewhat remote with no convenient public transit and in a wealthy area with few of the services she needs to deal with. When she's gone out on her own it's been to areas where she's walking distance from the DPSS (welfare office,) DMV, police station where she wants to file reports, etc. I also know she's not hiding from the cops (I checked myself), there are other people she's quite scared of but I think she's overblowing things to some degree and if one of them *does* show up I'm on /k/ for a reason and CA despite all of its shitty gun laws is a Castle state, and protecting a helpless little girl from a violent predator with a felony record who stalked her 30+ miles to my own property is pretty open and shut.

            As for clearing the house out, the annoying thing is that everything *should* be lined up already. My realtor works with somebody that clears houses out and will even sell anything worth selling that you leave behind as well as throwing away all the trash. My dad somehow can't wrap his head around this, though, and keeps fixating on taking loads of trash to the dump ourselves, and it's totally bogging us down. He's also refusing to come up with any concrete plans for himself after leaving the house and just goes into depression bullshit when pressed about it.

            Once again a multi-part post

            • 1 year ago
              Anonymous

              IRT the 4WD, I'm moving to a mountain area where you legally need 4WD and snow tires to drive without chains in the winter, and they don't plow anything except the main arterial roads so you need to drive over significant powder buildup. On top of that the snow and freezing temperatures are intermittent enough that keeping winter tires on the vehicle all winter is impractical, it'll be dumping pow one week and 60 degrees and sunny the next, so the best tire solution is snow-rated all terrains and decent options for those are very limited in car sizes. It's also an area with tons of BLM land for shooting and lots of cool off road trails that you need a high clearance 4WD to access. Oh, and there are rental properties in the area that are pretty cool but have dirt road access and even the listings say you need a 4WD to get in and out reliably, and that might help me get a place since it's not practical for the Silicon Valley refugees with their Priuses/Teslas/Subarus at best.

              Right now I'm kinda stuck in terms of moving there anyway, getting out of state in that direction has been basically impossible for the last few months because of storms and getting a rental during ski season is a fricking b***h, and it's not like I could be flying if I were there because of the weather anyway. Things should be a lot better in a month or two. Other than the rental situation I've got things figured out, already visited the school and talked to staff/instructors, even details like where I'm gonna get furniture once I find a place and so on.

              As for what I want out of the girl, really I just want to frick her some so I don't have to spend the rest of my life feeling like she was the one that got away. I'm getting old, way too old to be dealing with shit like this, but I've never been with a chick who actually really fits my taste like her before, never really even known any, and just once I'd like to know what it's like instead of just settling.

              • 1 year ago
                Anonymous

                >I don't have to spend the rest of my life feeling like she was the one that got away
                She can't be the one that got away if you never had her in the first place, dingus.

            • 1 year ago
              Anonymous

              Honestly, I tried to type this out multiple times and it came out incoherent with my inability to process either my own level of suspension of disbelief or your actual naivete.

              IRT the 4WD, I'm moving to a mountain area where you legally need 4WD and snow tires to drive without chains in the winter, and they don't plow anything except the main arterial roads so you need to drive over significant powder buildup. On top of that the snow and freezing temperatures are intermittent enough that keeping winter tires on the vehicle all winter is impractical, it'll be dumping pow one week and 60 degrees and sunny the next, so the best tire solution is snow-rated all terrains and decent options for those are very limited in car sizes. It's also an area with tons of BLM land for shooting and lots of cool off road trails that you need a high clearance 4WD to access. Oh, and there are rental properties in the area that are pretty cool but have dirt road access and even the listings say you need a 4WD to get in and out reliably, and that might help me get a place since it's not practical for the Silicon Valley refugees with their Priuses/Teslas/Subarus at best.

              Right now I'm kinda stuck in terms of moving there anyway, getting out of state in that direction has been basically impossible for the last few months because of storms and getting a rental during ski season is a fricking b***h, and it's not like I could be flying if I were there because of the weather anyway. Things should be a lot better in a month or two. Other than the rental situation I've got things figured out, already visited the school and talked to staff/instructors, even details like where I'm gonna get furniture once I find a place and so on.

              As for what I want out of the girl, really I just want to frick her some so I don't have to spend the rest of my life feeling like she was the one that got away. I'm getting old, way too old to be dealing with shit like this, but I've never been with a chick who actually really fits my taste like her before, never really even known any, and just once I'd like to know what it's like instead of just settling.

              She has all her stuff in your house. How? No vehicle, no access to a secluded area. She is a "helpless little girl" you feel obligated to protect. And you think California law will protect you under any circumstance wherein a firearm is utilized? When you know she is being apparently followed by a violent predator with a felony record. But no, you checked that she is not running from the police. Great, I'm sure that is as thorough as necessary to risk your own life limb and property over.... you wanting to frick her. When she has established that no - she doesn't feel that way.

              I no longer believe this is real. Any woman in her position would not refuse this trade to put it bluntly.

              This is pure fiction in my opinion.

              if its not, swap your father and the woman in your home, sell the home your father was residing within and let her figure out her life. This should give her plenty of time to find a nearby shelter which is where she should have gone in the first place.

              I don't know man. This is frankly bizarre. There is an excuse for everything and a reason for every obstacle. Lack of critical thinking makes me question your choice of career.

              • 1 year ago
                Anonymous

                I don't really see the guy she's scared of as a credible threat. He's a (literal) bum with no means of getting here outside of a 2 hour train ride and an hour of walking, and no way of knowing where I live. I was just saying that if he does somehow show up I can deal with it, and contrary to popular belief CA is actually pretty good for home defense, we have tons of cases that never go to court because they're so clear-cut.

                >When she has established that no - she doesn't feel that way.
                She actually hasn't. What she's established is that she's afraid of having a relationship with me. She actually gives a lot of indications of having *more* feelings for me than I do for her, including the fact that she apparently never shuts up about how great I am when talking to other mutual friends who can't keep secrets. My big fear and what's fricking me up is that, as I think I said before, she's actually willing and I'm the one blue balling her by not coming on stronger, she certainly gives me signs that's the case - like telling me that she's too shy and submissive to make moves herself and that she needs a guy to just go for it, and then later telling me how I need to be more confident and assertive, or making lewd "jokes" about being fricked by me, or whatever, but always puts it in this veil of plausible deniability; "oh, I was talking about other girls" and "that was just a joke, not an invitation" and whatever.

                The whole thing is a damn mindfrick and it'd honestly be a lot easier if she were just straightforward and consistent about not wanting to be with me, but she isn't at all and it's not in the usual stringing along kind of way, it's a lot of stuff that I don't think she's consciously controlling.

              • 1 year ago
                Anonymous

                I've been with a girl like this, I know it's hard. I seem to be a good man, and it's very noble for you to try to make it work, but seriously, break up before it's to late, because it will eventually happens at some point with so many red flag.

                Just keep in mind that the longer you wait the harder it will get.
                But I'm sending you my prayer regardless, hope this work for you in the end

              • 1 year ago
                Anonymous

                >telling me that she's too shy and submissive to make moves herself
                >needs a guy to just go for it
                >telling me how I need to be more confident and assertive
                >making lewd "jokes" about being fricked by me

                Alright anon, casual observer that left this thread open from last night because I was curious enough about your story. If this is not fiction, if this is not you playing it up for internet attention, and you're a real, breathing human being and you're playing it down and doubting in your head and writing this out because it truly pains you, and this is your only outlet for it? Fricking go for it.

                I get trying to be a good, honorable man. Hell, part of why I'm interested is because I'm having a bit of the same spot myself, except with a woman who actually is my girl and I actually sleep with. She ticks almost every goddamn box I can think of for me, is more like me than any woman I've been with in a good way, but is very shy and clearly been through some shit before she knew me, and I'm not prying. In short, there's a few things friends have brought up as red flags, but understanding some of her struggles, shared history we have, etc., none of it doesn't make sense or isn't a place I haven't been in before, so I understand it implicitly and treat her with grace. I personally in the last couple years just before meeting her got out of a terrible long relationship with a woman who ticked literally every box for signs of narcissistic abuse towards me, and that still fricks with me aside from a terrible, terrible romantic history of getting used in the past (So maybe I'm not a shining example for your case, lol, but I know better now). That paranoia aside, I'm in a spot where an outside observer rightly would think I'm getting fricked around on, but how precocious and shy she is, frankly how long it took for anything to fully develop between us, I know it's also objectively not what I'd been through before in a way only someone involved would know.

              • 1 year ago
                Anonymous

                I say all this to say, I get where you're coming from. It sounds suspicious as frick, and in most cases I'd tell someone to just cut their losses and be the better for it, because at the end of the day, it is not your job to fix her - I'm not saying you can't or shouldn't, or that people don't need help and grace, but even assuming the best of all of this, it sounds like it's legitimately getting in the way of your goals, ambitions, and most importantly your mental well being.

                However.

                Don't be a fricking pussy. Can't think of a less blunt way to put it. I've had my fair share of ups and downs, but have been objectively more successful than many of our Mongolian basketweaving enthusiast brothers, and there's playing "hard to get" or being a wishy-washy manipulator, and there's literally someone putting the image of you in bed with them intentionally. Once again, assuming this isn't all just artful fiction, women don't just do that for a chuckle. Revising off of previous statements and evidence, you legitimately need to just go for it.

                I understand grace, I understand kindness, and I understand not wanting to come on to someone and kick them out of it doesn't happen, because from an outside perspective, that looks scummy, sure. But there's two options - She's intentionally doing that to keep you in the spiral of attention and manipulation to keep you around her finger and keep a roof over her head, or she is signaling as hard as possible while maintaining coy deniability.

              • 1 year ago
                Anonymous

                This went on longer than I meant, but, hey. Specifically, you said she gives off signs she may have MORE for you than you do her - so why wouldn't she shield her ego in case you actually get sick of it and turn her down? She is a woman, after all. You also said, on top of "she occasionally talks about me fricking her haha" that you have smelled her get fricking aroused talking about stuff like that. Once again, I ain't Cassanova, but I've been through enough to know even the least restrained women don't just drop that as a conversation topic and get that turned on if they don't want that to go somewhere, and the only times I've experienced similar were cases I let it go and then found out later I was being a dipshit and missed a good chance.

                Go for it. You deserve it, not that anyone owes you shit, but you've got a lot on your plate, and we all deserve love. If what you've said is true she sounds like what you're looking for, at least right now. Guard your heart, don't get stupid, but go for it because either you do it and she turns you down, because she was legitimately just using you and you have your answer, or she was just waiting for it and you finally get everything you want.

                >tl;dr: Do her or you're gay.

                >/k/ - Weapons

              • 1 year ago
                Anonymous

                Can you really smell it if a woman gets horny?

              • 1 year ago
                Anonymous

                https://i.imgur.com/m8BBECf.jpg

                I say all this to say, I get where you're coming from. It sounds suspicious as frick, and in most cases I'd tell someone to just cut their losses and be the better for it, because at the end of the day, it is not your job to fix her - I'm not saying you can't or shouldn't, or that people don't need help and grace, but even assuming the best of all of this, it sounds like it's legitimately getting in the way of your goals, ambitions, and most importantly your mental well being.

                However.

                Don't be a fricking pussy. Can't think of a less blunt way to put it. I've had my fair share of ups and downs, but have been objectively more successful than many of our Mongolian basketweaving enthusiast brothers, and there's playing "hard to get" or being a wishy-washy manipulator, and there's literally someone putting the image of you in bed with them intentionally. Once again, assuming this isn't all just artful fiction, women don't just do that for a chuckle. Revising off of previous statements and evidence, you legitimately need to just go for it.

                I understand grace, I understand kindness, and I understand not wanting to come on to someone and kick them out of it doesn't happen, because from an outside perspective, that looks scummy, sure. But there's two options - She's intentionally doing that to keep you in the spiral of attention and manipulation to keep you around her finger and keep a roof over her head, or she is signaling as hard as possible while maintaining coy deniability.

                https://i.imgur.com/1lzPU3o.jpg

                This went on longer than I meant, but, hey. Specifically, you said she gives off signs she may have MORE for you than you do her - so why wouldn't she shield her ego in case you actually get sick of it and turn her down? She is a woman, after all. You also said, on top of "she occasionally talks about me fricking her haha" that you have smelled her get fricking aroused talking about stuff like that. Once again, I ain't Cassanova, but I've been through enough to know even the least restrained women don't just drop that as a conversation topic and get that turned on if they don't want that to go somewhere, and the only times I've experienced similar were cases I let it go and then found out later I was being a dipshit and missed a good chance.

                Go for it. You deserve it, not that anyone owes you shit, but you've got a lot on your plate, and we all deserve love. If what you've said is true she sounds like what you're looking for, at least right now. Guard your heart, don't get stupid, but go for it because either you do it and she turns you down, because she was legitimately just using you and you have your answer, or she was just waiting for it and you finally get everything you want.

                >tl;dr: Do her or you're gay.

                >/k/ - Weapons

                >Just bang her, bro. Stop being a pussy, bro. It's not mindraping she's just playing hard, bro. But don't get attached, bro.

                [...]
                [...]
                fwiw I've mostly talked about my grievances with the situation and was pretty bummed out last night, but there are good sides. She actually *does* do quite a bit of housework and is gradually clearing up the mess. It also has to be pointed out that the mess is a result of her trying to cram all of her remaining worldly possessions into a small space in a room that was already full.

                She also is out there trying to get shit done herself right now. Something I didn't really clarify earlier is that my house is somewhat remote with no convenient public transit and in a wealthy area with few of the services she needs to deal with. When she's gone out on her own it's been to areas where she's walking distance from the DPSS (welfare office,) DMV, police station where she wants to file reports, etc. I also know she's not hiding from the cops (I checked myself), there are other people she's quite scared of but I think she's overblowing things to some degree and if one of them *does* show up I'm on /k/ for a reason and CA despite all of its shitty gun laws is a Castle state, and protecting a helpless little girl from a violent predator with a felony record who stalked her 30+ miles to my own property is pretty open and shut.

                As for clearing the house out, the annoying thing is that everything *should* be lined up already. My realtor works with somebody that clears houses out and will even sell anything worth selling that you leave behind as well as throwing away all the trash. My dad somehow can't wrap his head around this, though, and keeps fixating on taking loads of trash to the dump ourselves, and it's totally bogging us down. He's also refusing to come up with any concrete plans for himself after leaving the house and just goes into depression bullshit when pressed about it.

                Once again a multi-part post

                >She actually *does* do quite a bit of housework
                That's not how housework... works.
                If you take a fat shit on the bed, mopping the kitchen floor doesn't make up for the stinking pile of crap. I'll give you that your place doesn't look revoltingly filthy, just messy as hell (though in a very girl way - bros just stack bottles of piss and rotate the same 3 shirts ad infinitum).

                Also let me tell you in a little secret: men don't have types. We will bone or wife any reasonably attractive girl that's receptive to our advances and then rationalize our actions post-fact.
                The more relationships we accrue, the more 'types' we seem to collect.
                Say, you didn't know you were into artsy brunettes until this 9/10 Zooey Deschanel-looking b***h gave you the best head ever. Or maybe it's petite tomboys and a crossfit girl that thought the F-14 tomcat was gay yet made you feel like a child on ketamine being smothered by his mother when you spooned.

                Is it settling? I don't know. Things with seemingly perfect matches will go to hell because time fricks with everything, so yeah you might as well "settle" and build a future together from solid ground. This contradicts what I just said about time fricking with everything but there you go.

                Also she's not "the one". You don't get to choose who's "the one", there's a modicum of reciprocity to the concept.
                "The one" would be addicted to your dick, have your place sparkling clean, take a shitty waiting job to not be an absolute burden, etc.
                She's pretty and smart and you might cajole her into drunk pity sex once if you try hard enough. YEAH BRO THAT'S THE ONE RIGHT THERE.

              • 1 year ago
                Anonymous

                >Also let me tell you in a little secret: men don't have types. We will bone or wife any reasonably attractive girl that's receptive to our advances and then rationalize our actions post-fact.
                I know exactly what you mean, but it's hasn't really been the case for me. I've tried man, spent 5 years with a girl everybody else thought was insanely hot and there were parts of her that I really liked but in general the more girls I've been with the more I realize that I DO have a type and that I'm not satisfied unless the girl I'm with fits it. For a long time I thought I might even be demisexual or something because I was rarely interested in sex with women until I had an emotional relationship with them but this girl is the type I've always sought out in porn, anime waifus, whatever and I was rock hard for her from pretty much day 1, and I've never experienced having sex with a girl who does that to me and probably never will if I don't get with her, hence how stressed I am at the prospect of not doing it. As I've gotten to know her I've just found out more and more private things that reinforce my attraction to her too, like the fact that she shares my taste in how sex should be done, which is something I've never experienced either - girls I've been with always want me to do stuff I'm not really into and often am uncomfortable with. (IDK why but I'm a magnet for girls with rape fantasies in particular.)

              • 1 year ago
                Anonymous

                https://i.imgur.com/m8BBECf.jpg

                I say all this to say, I get where you're coming from. It sounds suspicious as frick, and in most cases I'd tell someone to just cut their losses and be the better for it, because at the end of the day, it is not your job to fix her - I'm not saying you can't or shouldn't, or that people don't need help and grace, but even assuming the best of all of this, it sounds like it's legitimately getting in the way of your goals, ambitions, and most importantly your mental well being.

                However.

                Don't be a fricking pussy. Can't think of a less blunt way to put it. I've had my fair share of ups and downs, but have been objectively more successful than many of our Mongolian basketweaving enthusiast brothers, and there's playing "hard to get" or being a wishy-washy manipulator, and there's literally someone putting the image of you in bed with them intentionally. Once again, assuming this isn't all just artful fiction, women don't just do that for a chuckle. Revising off of previous statements and evidence, you legitimately need to just go for it.

                I understand grace, I understand kindness, and I understand not wanting to come on to someone and kick them out of it doesn't happen, because from an outside perspective, that looks scummy, sure. But there's two options - She's intentionally doing that to keep you in the spiral of attention and manipulation to keep you around her finger and keep a roof over her head, or she is signaling as hard as possible while maintaining coy deniability.

                https://i.imgur.com/1lzPU3o.jpg

                This went on longer than I meant, but, hey. Specifically, you said she gives off signs she may have MORE for you than you do her - so why wouldn't she shield her ego in case you actually get sick of it and turn her down? She is a woman, after all. You also said, on top of "she occasionally talks about me fricking her haha" that you have smelled her get fricking aroused talking about stuff like that. Once again, I ain't Cassanova, but I've been through enough to know even the least restrained women don't just drop that as a conversation topic and get that turned on if they don't want that to go somewhere, and the only times I've experienced similar were cases I let it go and then found out later I was being a dipshit and missed a good chance.

                Go for it. You deserve it, not that anyone owes you shit, but you've got a lot on your plate, and we all deserve love. If what you've said is true she sounds like what you're looking for, at least right now. Guard your heart, don't get stupid, but go for it because either you do it and she turns you down, because she was legitimately just using you and you have your answer, or she was just waiting for it and you finally get everything you want.

                >tl;dr: Do her or you're gay.

                >/k/ - Weapons

                The big problem with just going for it is finding a damn opportunity. Whenever we go out she's all girlfriendy, sticks super close to me, bubbly and flirty, pressing up against me when sitting next to me in restaurants or whatever, but then we get back into my room and she sits down into the little fortification she's made out of my couch and pretty quick it's like a pallet of bricks has fallen on her and she's back to being stressed out and depressed over all the shit that's happened to her and all the shit she feels like she still needs to do. She really doesn't understand the concept of work/life balance or whatever you want to call it and has just pushed herself to the point where she can't get anything done but won't let herself take a break and it really shows, and it means that she's pretty much only in a mood to be receptive to moves when we're in situations where it isn't appropriate.

            • 1 year ago
              Anonymous

              No anon, bad. I promise you she's not worth it. GTFO of LA, and find somewhere good for flying. I live in Central pennslyvania, real close to harrisburg international. There's tons of pilots here and it's an excellent place to fly in every imaginable condition. Mountains, plains, rain, snow, you name it. Just find somewhere nice like here, and focus on building hours. Also if she's fricking dudes on the side, then she'll probably have no problem finding some other guy to leech off

          • 1 year ago
            Anonymous

            Oh yeah, one last thing, in regards to the Cambridge thing. I've pushed her to do that as well and she says she's tried but without much luck. However I think she's really too ashamed to make much of an effort, she knows she squandered that degree (though there were definitely extenuating circumstances there) and she's left most of her friends from school in the dark ever since leaving her husband so trying to catch back up with them after over a year has become an insurmountable obstacle for her. There's also surprisingly little in the way of a Cambridge network in LA (although she's actually benefiting from it now - my dad spent a year there and that connection is a huge part of why he's tolerating her) and a big part of why I'm pushing her to go back to the UK is that I think her degree will mean so much more there and help her get past the nearly 10 years she lost to her shitty marriage.

            I will say, though, that she DID have a career that was in part a result of her Cambridge history. She's a pretty accomplished radio broadcaster and was a BBC DJ back home and then co-host of a nationally syndicated AM radio show here until the breakup. She was also a regular guest on a prominent comedy/talk radio show and stuff too. In addition she also managed a nonprofit and did some other stuff. She wasn't always the way she is now, and knowing what she was like before the nightmare her divorce turned into is a big part of why I'm putting up with this shit.

            Also, the reason she hasn't gotten a passport is that until winding up at my place she had no fixed address to receive one at, and the consulates of both the UK and Germany (she was born in the latter and has dual citizenship) have been closed since COVID so she can't pick it up in person. She also lacked supporting documents to get a replacement. We went to the DMV last Monday and a new state ID is at least on the way so she'll have that, and it should help get new passports.

        • 1 year ago
          Anonymous

          [...]
          >Also, frick your friends for not giving you gas money, or taking you out on a Saturday night. They sound like leeches, not friends.
          It's not even really that, it's mostly family shit sucking up all my gas etc. It's pathetic but I don't really have friends anymore, at least not ones I see in person, everybody scattered and like I said before most are married with kids. The only "friends" I have left around here are druggie degenerate losers who never do anything except sit around at home and get high and I want nothing to do with any of that.

          Honestly the thing that's really fricking me up about this whole situation is that she's just so fricking attractive to me. My taste is kinda niche and it's exceptionally rare for me to find a girl I'm so thoroughly attracted to, and it's not just her body or face, it's the way she dresses and styles herself, her attitude toward sex and the way she likes to have it, stuff like that, and I've just never met a girl who matches up with my preferences so well and it sucks thinking/knowing that I probably never will again.

          There's just weird shit that doesn't really match up with a girl who's totally playing me either. Maybe I'm stupid but she touches me pretty often, her body language shows attraction, I've seen (and smelled!) her get horny when talking sex with me, she's shown me nudes she did back in the day, she's fallen asleep with her head on my shoulder before, and all that shit that in any other situation would be screaming for me to frick her, but then she turns around and tells me not to make a move on her a few minutes later. It's fricking weird and my best interpretation is that she actually DOES want to do stuff but is willfully depriving herself of that satisfaction out of some depressive self-destructive bullshit or something, and that's backed up by her telling me in the past that she does that in other ways, like forcing herself not to eat or sleep when she has unfinished business.

          Frick...

          [...]
          [...]
          Fricking hell it became a three-parter.

          Anyway, at this point I'm not expecting anything, I'm just doing it because I can't live with myself if I let her go to hell when I could've prevented it and I guess as some kind of penance for things I've done in the past, plus I've just got her family relying on me and her dad is a good dude I don't want to let down. My plan at this point is to continue searching for a place and if I find one I'm gone, but as long as I'm still here I'll try to get her the frick out of here and back to her family where she can start putting her life back together, and maybe if we're in better places and still single a few years down the line something will work out.

          I'm the anon with

          [...]
          [...]
          [...]
          This chick of yours raises so many red flags that I don't even know where to begin. She's using you and she knows it. If hooking up with you causes her to give up on her own goals, then you don't need to be a part of her life at all. Hooking up with you should mean that it makes it easier to get to her goals, and that would mean the same for you. She's using you and is lying to you.

          If she's a Cambridge grad, then why hasn't she used their alumni house network to get herself a fricking job?

          If she doesn't have a passport to get home to Europe, why doesn't she go to her nation's embassy, to get her a flight home? If she's illegal, ICE will help her out with that. That part makes no sense. How is it your job to get her a passport?

          Also, don't fall for the trap of marrying her, just so she can stay in the country. One of my friends did that with a Ukrainian and got fricked over by her.

          You don't need her emotional baggage. You're not her emotional sponge. Kick her the frick out and then work like hell to get out of LA, and go to the school you want to go to.

          And if you can't get an apartment, then rent a room for a while. There are plenty of nice little old ladies that rent out rooms for a good price and that'll get you to where you need to go.

          Also, frick your friends for not giving you gas money, or taking you out on a Saturday night. They sound like leeches, not friends.

          and

          [...]
          [...]
          It sounds like you're looking to her for love, and that's why you keep justifying what you do for her. We've all done that at some point when we've been at low places in our lives and needing some kind of support. But what she is "giving" you isn't support, but leeching.

          If romantic love is a two-way street, then she wouldn't sit around and mope and be anxious all day. Rather, she would actually help you with whatever shit there is around the house to do. I mean, she'd go full bore, and stop all the pity parties altogether. She's not doing that, so she shows that she's using you.

          Your one priority is yourself. First, you need to take care of your desire to fly planes. That market is wide open right now and as long as you avoid the vax, you'll be good. Keep working toward that.

          She is NOT your priority. She has a lot going for her and she's not taking advantage of it. Being a Cambridge grad is a ticket to high-paying jobs. Why exactly isn't she using it? And why won't she hit up the consulate of her own nation (you're in LA, it's there) to get herself a replacement passport? That can be done almost instantly, so her "need" for a US one is bullshit.

          That woman has you wrapped around her little finger and she knows it. She likes fricking with your head. It's a power trip. *IF* it's true that she's been with nothing but abusers, then she's abusing you out of spite, and she doesn't have to get violent. And she's using sex (with some flirting) to get back at you for them.

          You've already done too much for this chick. She needs to get off her ass and take care of herself. She has the ability to do so, she just refuses to. Why should she when she's given everything for free?

          Do you have a plan for getting to the flight school you want to go to? If so, are you following that plan?

          . If you need to chat, this is my burner: [email protected]

      • 1 year ago
        Anonymous

        Yeah, believe me, I know she's a fricking disaster. Some of the stuff is understandable with knowledge of the whole situation though, and while I'm not gonna give her whole life story it's not as ridiculous as it seems. A lot of shit is just because she's got insane levels of anxiety though, it's not even so much having to do shit for her as it is kicking her in the ass to get shit done instead of wallowing in her own anxiety and depression.

        The passport thing is in progress, and she's totally legal, moved here with her ex-husband and has a green card etc., and apparently could actually get a US passport easily if she wanted because of the circumstances. (Married an American and then left after 8 years due to abuse, which fwiw I have solid verification of, she's not making it up.) Definitely no chance of her trying to marry me for citizenship or anything, and she wants to go back too, but not until her divorce is resolved, and this is where shit really goes off the rails - CA is a 50/50 state and she thinks she's owed more after what the dude put her through, and morally maybe she's right but I don't think it's worth the nightmare it'll be to sue him and she should just move on with her life, but it's the one thing she's clinging to after giving so much up for this dude.

        She did have a job before leaving her ex and then everything went to shit - ex immediately drained the joint bank account, she had to move in with this other dude who stole all her stuff including computer, passports, etc. to try and keep her from leaving and then lost all of it, etc.

        Frick, this is gonna be a two-parter again

        >Also, frick your friends for not giving you gas money, or taking you out on a Saturday night. They sound like leeches, not friends.
        It's not even really that, it's mostly family shit sucking up all my gas etc. It's pathetic but I don't really have friends anymore, at least not ones I see in person, everybody scattered and like I said before most are married with kids. The only "friends" I have left around here are druggie degenerate losers who never do anything except sit around at home and get high and I want nothing to do with any of that.

        Honestly the thing that's really fricking me up about this whole situation is that she's just so fricking attractive to me. My taste is kinda niche and it's exceptionally rare for me to find a girl I'm so thoroughly attracted to, and it's not just her body or face, it's the way she dresses and styles herself, her attitude toward sex and the way she likes to have it, stuff like that, and I've just never met a girl who matches up with my preferences so well and it sucks thinking/knowing that I probably never will again.

        There's just weird shit that doesn't really match up with a girl who's totally playing me either. Maybe I'm stupid but she touches me pretty often, her body language shows attraction, I've seen (and smelled!) her get horny when talking sex with me, she's shown me nudes she did back in the day, she's fallen asleep with her head on my shoulder before, and all that shit that in any other situation would be screaming for me to frick her, but then she turns around and tells me not to make a move on her a few minutes later. It's fricking weird and my best interpretation is that she actually DOES want to do stuff but is willfully depriving herself of that satisfaction out of some depressive self-destructive bullshit or something, and that's backed up by her telling me in the past that she does that in other ways, like forcing herself not to eat or sleep when she has unfinished business.

        Frick...

      • 1 year ago
        Anonymous

        Yeah, believe me, I know she's a fricking disaster. Some of the stuff is understandable with knowledge of the whole situation though, and while I'm not gonna give her whole life story it's not as ridiculous as it seems. A lot of shit is just because she's got insane levels of anxiety though, it's not even so much having to do shit for her as it is kicking her in the ass to get shit done instead of wallowing in her own anxiety and depression.

        The passport thing is in progress, and she's totally legal, moved here with her ex-husband and has a green card etc., and apparently could actually get a US passport easily if she wanted because of the circumstances. (Married an American and then left after 8 years due to abuse, which fwiw I have solid verification of, she's not making it up.) Definitely no chance of her trying to marry me for citizenship or anything, and she wants to go back too, but not until her divorce is resolved, and this is where shit really goes off the rails - CA is a 50/50 state and she thinks she's owed more after what the dude put her through, and morally maybe she's right but I don't think it's worth the nightmare it'll be to sue him and she should just move on with her life, but it's the one thing she's clinging to after giving so much up for this dude.

        She did have a job before leaving her ex and then everything went to shit - ex immediately drained the joint bank account, she had to move in with this other dude who stole all her stuff including computer, passports, etc. to try and keep her from leaving and then lost all of it, etc.

        Frick, this is gonna be a two-parter again

        [...]
        >Also, frick your friends for not giving you gas money, or taking you out on a Saturday night. They sound like leeches, not friends.
        It's not even really that, it's mostly family shit sucking up all my gas etc. It's pathetic but I don't really have friends anymore, at least not ones I see in person, everybody scattered and like I said before most are married with kids. The only "friends" I have left around here are druggie degenerate losers who never do anything except sit around at home and get high and I want nothing to do with any of that.

        Honestly the thing that's really fricking me up about this whole situation is that she's just so fricking attractive to me. My taste is kinda niche and it's exceptionally rare for me to find a girl I'm so thoroughly attracted to, and it's not just her body or face, it's the way she dresses and styles herself, her attitude toward sex and the way she likes to have it, stuff like that, and I've just never met a girl who matches up with my preferences so well and it sucks thinking/knowing that I probably never will again.

        There's just weird shit that doesn't really match up with a girl who's totally playing me either. Maybe I'm stupid but she touches me pretty often, her body language shows attraction, I've seen (and smelled!) her get horny when talking sex with me, she's shown me nudes she did back in the day, she's fallen asleep with her head on my shoulder before, and all that shit that in any other situation would be screaming for me to frick her, but then she turns around and tells me not to make a move on her a few minutes later. It's fricking weird and my best interpretation is that she actually DOES want to do stuff but is willfully depriving herself of that satisfaction out of some depressive self-destructive bullshit or something, and that's backed up by her telling me in the past that she does that in other ways, like forcing herself not to eat or sleep when she has unfinished business.

        Frick...

        Fricking hell it became a three-parter.

        Anyway, at this point I'm not expecting anything, I'm just doing it because I can't live with myself if I let her go to hell when I could've prevented it and I guess as some kind of penance for things I've done in the past, plus I've just got her family relying on me and her dad is a good dude I don't want to let down. My plan at this point is to continue searching for a place and if I find one I'm gone, but as long as I'm still here I'll try to get her the frick out of here and back to her family where she can start putting her life back together, and maybe if we're in better places and still single a few years down the line something will work out.

    • 1 year ago
      Anonymous

      Continued
      >Dealing with a frickton of stress overall, to a crippling degree
      >Can't even do drugs or see a therapist like everybody else in this shithole because I'm still trying to be a pilot and can't have that shit on my record (plus no drug I've ever tried has had the desired effect on me)
      >Bad anxiety too, and LA's the worst place on Earth to have it, place is fricking Chad central and everybody else is on coke or whatever so they're all super confident and social and make me look like some pathetic incel in situations where I'd do fine anywhere else
      >Speaking of anxiety, the girl in question keeps seeming like she's dropping hints that I should just chad up and make a move on her despite her saying otherwise that she doesn't want to hook up, but I've got way too much anxiety about taking that risk, especially because her life is genuinely fricked if I drive her off with it
      >Oh yeah, also broke as frick in large part because everybody always expects me to drive everywhere for everything and I drive a truck that I definitely didn't get with fricking $5 a gallon gas in mind
      Basically everything just really fricking sucks right now. Wish I could just go to a bar or club or something at least but doing that shit alone sucks and everything around here is either degen rap bullshit or hipster bullshit where I won't have anything in common with anybody, plus I can't even bring a girl back to this disaster of a place if I meet one.

      I don’t have advise, but I hope things work out for you man. Don’t give up.

    • 1 year ago
      Anonymous

      she is using you

      [...]
      [...]
      The situation with this chick is pretty complicated and fricked up and unfortunately I'm not enough of a bastard to kick her out. She will literally end up homeless on the street 100% if I do - and that's not just conjecture, that's where she was before I took her in (and to be clear, she's not some random homeless chick, she was part of my friends circle before all this shit happened to her) and I'd at least like to get things to the point where she's got an alternative if she has to leave my place, she has family back in Europe and if I can help her get a passport she can at least go home if worse comes to worse.

      She also isn't holding shit over me or anything, it's just me understanding the reality of the situation, I think better than she does too - she tries to get shit done on her own and fails miserably pretty much every time, she's really traumatized by all of this shit she's been through and is just way too much of a ball of anxiety to do it without having her hand held. I also get why she's hesitant to get into anything, she's been through some really bad shit including at least a couple of rapes and given her state I can understand that she just wouldn't be capable of it at the moment. She's also said to me that she's really afraid that if she hooks up with me she'll end up devoting her life to me, giving up on her own goals, and becoming completely dependent and maybe that's the truth. She's also, however, told me that if I were a douchebag she could frick and ghost without feeling bad she already would've let me frick her, and that's a pretty shitty thing to hear.

      The really fricked thing, though, is that she's a really nice, likeable, fun person when she's not in these anxiety spirals, and good wife material if she can get past them. She's an amazing cook, she cleans (but then dumps her bullshit on top of the newly spotless surfaces), she's really fricking funny, smart as hell (Cambridge grad), and super hot.

      she is using you

      [...]
      [...]
      Gonna have to continue again.

      The house sale itself isn't the issue, it's clearing 30 years of bullshit out that's the problem. My dad is old and depressed and won't do shit, and to some degree I can't blame him but this shit has to get done before he and my mom run out of money. The house is worth bank too, buying it was the one good financial decision my folks ever made and it's easily north of 2 mil even with the market coming down recently.

      As for education, I just need flight hours. I've found the exact school I want to do it with and it's just a matter of getting there. I can't afford to stay in LA long term, nor do I want to, and flight training here is expensive as frick and terrible (way too much traffic, wastes hours of lessons) so there's no point trying to do it here.

      As for the truck, not an option to sell, I make good use of it and need the 4WD once I move back out of state.

      [...]
      I get out and do PrepHole and /k/ stuff, it's just solitary, you know? I just want to do social shit like I used to, meet people, maybe get laid, etc. LA's just a nightmare for it, I know that's hard to believe but I've lived other places and I was fine there, people here are just so fricking cliquey and elitist and there are very few bars or clubs that play music I'm into or anything. Maybe I'll just go out to the one fricking country bar in the whole region but it's kinda lame.

      she is using you

      Yeah, believe me, I know she's a fricking disaster. Some of the stuff is understandable with knowledge of the whole situation though, and while I'm not gonna give her whole life story it's not as ridiculous as it seems. A lot of shit is just because she's got insane levels of anxiety though, it's not even so much having to do shit for her as it is kicking her in the ass to get shit done instead of wallowing in her own anxiety and depression.

      The passport thing is in progress, and she's totally legal, moved here with her ex-husband and has a green card etc., and apparently could actually get a US passport easily if she wanted because of the circumstances. (Married an American and then left after 8 years due to abuse, which fwiw I have solid verification of, she's not making it up.) Definitely no chance of her trying to marry me for citizenship or anything, and she wants to go back too, but not until her divorce is resolved, and this is where shit really goes off the rails - CA is a 50/50 state and she thinks she's owed more after what the dude put her through, and morally maybe she's right but I don't think it's worth the nightmare it'll be to sue him and she should just move on with her life, but it's the one thing she's clinging to after giving so much up for this dude.

      She did have a job before leaving her ex and then everything went to shit - ex immediately drained the joint bank account, she had to move in with this other dude who stole all her stuff including computer, passports, etc. to try and keep her from leaving and then lost all of it, etc.

      Frick, this is gonna be a two-parter again

      she is using you

      [...]
      >Also, frick your friends for not giving you gas money, or taking you out on a Saturday night. They sound like leeches, not friends.
      It's not even really that, it's mostly family shit sucking up all my gas etc. It's pathetic but I don't really have friends anymore, at least not ones I see in person, everybody scattered and like I said before most are married with kids. The only "friends" I have left around here are druggie degenerate losers who never do anything except sit around at home and get high and I want nothing to do with any of that.

      Honestly the thing that's really fricking me up about this whole situation is that she's just so fricking attractive to me. My taste is kinda niche and it's exceptionally rare for me to find a girl I'm so thoroughly attracted to, and it's not just her body or face, it's the way she dresses and styles herself, her attitude toward sex and the way she likes to have it, stuff like that, and I've just never met a girl who matches up with my preferences so well and it sucks thinking/knowing that I probably never will again.

      There's just weird shit that doesn't really match up with a girl who's totally playing me either. Maybe I'm stupid but she touches me pretty often, her body language shows attraction, I've seen (and smelled!) her get horny when talking sex with me, she's shown me nudes she did back in the day, she's fallen asleep with her head on my shoulder before, and all that shit that in any other situation would be screaming for me to frick her, but then she turns around and tells me not to make a move on her a few minutes later. It's fricking weird and my best interpretation is that she actually DOES want to do stuff but is willfully depriving herself of that satisfaction out of some depressive self-destructive bullshit or something, and that's backed up by her telling me in the past that she does that in other ways, like forcing herself not to eat or sleep when she has unfinished business.

      Frick...

      she is using you

      [...]
      [...]
      fwiw I've mostly talked about my grievances with the situation and was pretty bummed out last night, but there are good sides. She actually *does* do quite a bit of housework and is gradually clearing up the mess. It also has to be pointed out that the mess is a result of her trying to cram all of her remaining worldly possessions into a small space in a room that was already full.

      She also is out there trying to get shit done herself right now. Something I didn't really clarify earlier is that my house is somewhat remote with no convenient public transit and in a wealthy area with few of the services she needs to deal with. When she's gone out on her own it's been to areas where she's walking distance from the DPSS (welfare office,) DMV, police station where she wants to file reports, etc. I also know she's not hiding from the cops (I checked myself), there are other people she's quite scared of but I think she's overblowing things to some degree and if one of them *does* show up I'm on /k/ for a reason and CA despite all of its shitty gun laws is a Castle state, and protecting a helpless little girl from a violent predator with a felony record who stalked her 30+ miles to my own property is pretty open and shut.

      As for clearing the house out, the annoying thing is that everything *should* be lined up already. My realtor works with somebody that clears houses out and will even sell anything worth selling that you leave behind as well as throwing away all the trash. My dad somehow can't wrap his head around this, though, and keeps fixating on taking loads of trash to the dump ourselves, and it's totally bogging us down. He's also refusing to come up with any concrete plans for himself after leaving the house and just goes into depression bullshit when pressed about it.

      Once again a multi-part post

      she is using you

      You have come up with 10,000 excuses for her behavior, just stop. When it comes to bad behavior, "why" literally doesn't matter. You need for yourself (and she needs you to tell her) to straighten up and fly right or this has to end. It's as simple as that.

      You're falling in love with what COULD be, and making yourself blind and ignorant to what IS.This will only lead to disappointment in yourself for allowing her and others to take advantage of your kind nature again, and again, and again, likely manifesting in depression and self-loathing, which is what I see in your posts. Not only is this hurting you, it's hurting her too, by providing her a comfortable nest of misery, she has no impetus to change. She has no pressure to get meaningful work, to take care of herself, to push her boundaries, to challenge herself to grow; you are filling all of those roles and killing yourself to do so and all its doing is encouraging her to wallow in pity, misery, loathing, and sorrow. In these situations, a catastrophe is better for her than an inconvenience, because small inconveniences will never encourage a change, whereas a catastrophe will FORCE a change.

      This isn't a "just frick her bro" message, though it's probable she will play that card to buy herself time, but it's a recognition that what you're doing isn't helping anyone, and deep down you know that. You are using her as well to not feel lonely, but if you take an honest inventory of costs and benefits, well based on what you've written you'll see the costs are bigger by a mile.

      Women are survivors and they have 10 billion programs to support them, there's a reason homeless are over 70% male. She'll be fine. And on the off chance she does change her ways, she'll thank you for it for the rest of her life.

      • 1 year ago
        Anonymous

        Ok listen to me Black person, the pilot job market imploded last year or so. Everybody and their grandmother is looking for experienced pilots.
        You need to get that experience. ASAP. It doesn't matter if you have to live out of your car or if you have to move 3 states away, you need to get those hours. Here's what you want: Hours, IFR, multi-engine and multi-crew. In that order. Meaning a Single-engine IFR job BTFO's a multi-engine VFR job. A job where you do 100 hours VFR a month beats an IFR job with 10 hours per month.

        Hold yourself to a professional standard. Even if you end up working for a cowboy outfit where everyone's kinda moronic, YOU need to keep it together. Write your own checklists if you have to, kick off that A/P, read and learn your machine. It's gonna be tough work, and it won't be glamorous, but you're gonna fricking make it.

        https://i.imgur.com/U4dhhfu.jpg

        No anon, bad. I promise you she's not worth it. GTFO of LA, and find somewhere good for flying. I live in Central pennslyvania, real close to harrisburg international. There's tons of pilots here and it's an excellent place to fly in every imaginable condition. Mountains, plains, rain, snow, you name it. Just find somewhere nice like here, and focus on building hours. Also if she's fricking dudes on the side, then she'll probably have no problem finding some other guy to leech off

        I may come back and expand on these replies, but just a few quick points so it can stop nagging at me for a bit.

        I'm not in love with this girl and honestly don't really want a relationship with her. I just want to be FWBs for a bit so I can get it out of my system and move on, and maybe figure out if I'm right in having such a narrow type or if it's really just me and I need to give up and go back to fricking any reasonably attractive girl who's willing.

        Also, she's not preventing me from leaving or restarting my flight training. That's totally down to housing availability and weather. I check listings every day, send emails or call the ones that seem viable, and it goes nowhere, and on top of that I can't actually GET to this place to look at a place if one does come up, both routes there are totally snowed over and while I've got a 4WD with pretty decent snow-rated A/Ts that are fine for around town I don't really feel confident taking it long distance on the highway in the snow, especially with my limited experience. (I've been an avid skier most of my life so I'm better off than most Californians but nowhere close to somebody who grew up in a real snow region.)

        • 1 year ago
          Anonymous

          Look forget about the girl. Forget about being FWBs "for a bit" and moving on later. If this woman is not the woman you will put a child in and a ring on her finger, you need to forget about her. You are out thousands of dollars in flight training. New people graduate every day and this shortage wont last forever.

          You are on the closing side of a time window that doesn't open back up every few years. If you're not actually done with training and don't have your ticket yet, it's actually even more important to get that done because you're even further behind. If you really want to do this you need to finish training ASAP, because everyday the line of applicants in front of you is getting bigger.

          Anon, this advice comes from the heart, from a fellow aviator gay that went through the shitshow that was the financial crisis in this industry. These moments don't last forever. If you don't act fast and focus, you might need to shelve your dream for a decade. You'll be stuck with the shittiest job this industry has to offer if you dont' get off your feet now. Please think about this.

          • 1 year ago
            Anonymous

            I don't even have my PPL yet, was in my first flying semester of a college program when rona shut everything down and I've just been stuck since. Like I say, I'm not dragging my feet here, I literally have no options, I've found the one school that fits my budget and needs and it's all down to finding a damn place to live but as I said availability and current weather are preventing me from doing it. I can't train locally because I can't afford to stay in CA long term, or train here with the prices and extra hours it takes up, or even get a decent pace of instruction because like everything else in CA the schools are full. I'm gone the instant the weather clears up and I can find a place to live.

  29. 1 year ago
    Anonymous

    Got a cord of wood in the driveway and a bunch of food in the freezer, and I think I'll crack open some homebrew ale tonight. I'm solid.

  30. 1 year ago
    Anonymous

    I tried to make my magazine couplers say gay Defence instead of FAB Defence, but it didn't work

  31. 1 year ago
    Anonymous

    My hip, knee, and ankle hurt like mad. At least my eyesight is fine despite photosensitivity and some grainy mess that’s more prevalent at night.

    • 1 year ago
      Anonymous

      https://i.imgur.com/qCD4TfF.jpg

      How's everyone holdin' up? No negative waves, I hope.

      Oooh, one more thing.
      In Kelly’s Heroes, the Americans didn’t actually use M1911s in the film. The pistols they used were actually VIS-35s. And if you haven’t seen the film in a while, there is a Mosin PU as well!

    • 1 year ago
      Anonymous

      Inflammation? Lack of cartilage? Hyper-extension? Sleeping on it wrong? You might want to go see someone if it's all hurting to the point of objection and it doesn't go away after a few days.

  32. 1 year ago
    Anonymous

    I live in Washington. I'm doing pretty fricking bad.

    • 1 year ago
      Anonymous

      >mfw my lgs doesn't give a shit about the law and openly ignores the mag ban and will probably ignore the AWB too
      >mfw this AWB is blatantly illegal and the second the courts get off their ass we'll be completely unrestricted https://time.com/6261594/washington-state-assault-weapons-ban-ar-15/
      Be optimistic, Anon, it will get better, and if it doesn't, drive to the capital building and blow your brains out on the steps

  33. 1 year ago
    Anonymous

    I basically can't drink anymore because I fall asleep after two beers and wake up with a horrible sore neck and a splitting head ache. I used to be able to down a coffee mug of vodka and keep going, but that's changed in only 2 years.
    So I'm going to have to get into real therapy (cognative behavioural therapy) and meditation because my go-to (drinking) fuel for not hanging myself is unavailable.

    So not so good. Not horrible, it's just the long term knowing of it that's a mind drain.

    • 1 year ago
      Anonymous

      Been there - am there. It's pretty tough but it gets easier when you start establishing the new habits. Maintaining them takes work but it's really not nearly as hard as the first step. Work on it. I am.

  34. 1 year ago
    Anonymous

    I'm moving to Japan for a while on Monday.
    I'm both anxious as frick but also pretty hype for it since I had a bomb ass time last time I was there before covid.
    However I have this weird mental thing going on where when I think of what happens after Japan I get super stressed about career shit. Im 26 at the moment and I was thinking about staying there for 2 or 3 years, so I'll be 28 or 29 by the time I come back, but im afraid that some bullshit will happen and Ill be aged out of the careers I want, which are either to be an air traffic controller, or to go milgay and fly for the chair force. I know I'd be able to make it through either one given my education, but the selection process for both of those take a long ass time. Everyone around me seems to think that what I'm doing is a fun and good idea, so I think that my brain is just focusing down on the worst parts of everything and is torturing itself for some reason.

    Anyway I guess its not the time to worry about that shit since I have more pressing matters for the next ~48 hours lol

  35. 1 year ago
    Anonymous

    Well I'm flat broke so I can't afford to feed my new gun I traded for, but my new job pays me several bucks more per hour than my old job and I finally get paid again in a few days.
    Range days will resume next month, in the meantime I just play vidya since I can't even afford to leave my house.

    • 1 year ago
      Anonymous

      >can't afford to feed my new piece

      ENTER
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  36. 1 year ago
    Anonymous

    I had the choice between buying a fifth of Wild Turkey bourbon for $16 or a handle of some bottom shelf Canadian crap for $12. I opted for the Canadian and now I have buyers remorse because I just chose the cheaper one that gave more alcohol so I could drink more. That was a mistake I should've just opted to drink less of the good stuff.

  37. 1 year ago
    Anonymous

    Is this guy supposed to be a Pigeon Man cosplay

    • 1 year ago
      Anonymous

      You need to be 18 to post here.

      • 1 year ago
        Anonymous

        Making a Hey Arnold reference would make someone wayyyyyyy over zoomer age

  38. 1 year ago
    Anonymous

    My medical discharge paperwork finally got approved on Thursday. The whole process started back in October, and now I’m finally getting out of the Navy after ten years.
    Im going to be free again. I wept when I got home, it was like something pulled the 200 pound weight off of my chest.
    We’re moving in a couple weeks, back home. My son will finally be able to spend time with his grandparents, and the wife and I will be able to go on dates again.

    • 1 year ago
      Anonymous

      Sweet. Are you getting any VA gibs?

      • 1 year ago
        Anonymous

        Absolutely. Between a fricked up neck, back, shoulder, carpal tunnel, and the spicy anxiety disorder, I’ll be pretty well taken care of.

        • 1 year ago
          Anonymous

          Just warning you, get ready to fight with the VA about everything.

          • 1 year ago
            Anonymous

            I’m aware, it’s going to be appeal and appeal and appeal and appeal.
            I’m fortunate in one regard, both parents work in medicine so getting diagnosed with stuff won’t be hard, plus I’ve been studying the VA playbook for months now.

    • 1 year ago
      Anonymous

      Absolutely. Between a fricked up neck, back, shoulder, carpal tunnel, and the spicy anxiety disorder, I’ll be pretty well taken care of.

      >fricked up neck, back, shoulder, carpal tunnel, and the spicy anxiety disorder
      Yikes. WTF was your rating, and how the frick did all that happen. And congrats on getting the frick out.

      • 1 year ago
        Anonymous

        >neck
        herniated disc from an injury sustained during overhead press
        >shoulder
        nerve compression from above injury, and abuse from carrying 100 pounds boxes up ladders to load into birds. results in burning pain traveling the length of the arm 😀
        >back
        multiple slipped discs in lumbar region, literally bent over to a pick up a basketball and it went pop pop pop like firecrackers, its been bugging the frick out of me for a few years. Can't really stand up straight up anymore
        >carpal tunnel
        too much time on keyboards, writing, typing.
        >anxiety disorder
        developed over the course of this last year, don't really feel safe anywhere. Have a lot of panic attacks. I think it's my command, there's been three other E-6s in the past six months who have developed the same symptoms, same experience.

    • 1 year ago
      Anonymous

      Start your SSDI application now, esp if you have your medical discharge and headed for TPD status. If you think the VA is a pain in the ads, SSA will take 12-18mos to deny your claim and 6-8more to process your first appeal. Don't bother with a lawyer until you have to have a administrative hearing, but definitely get one at that point before you see the judge

  39. 1 year ago
    Anonymous

    I just had sex.

  40. 1 year ago
    Anonymous

    My dad is in hospital right now because of complications from HIV that I discovered pretty much past week, my mom died of covid two years ago, I got an uni schoolarship that I can't attend at the moment because i have to take care of my dad, I'm working a lot, feeling that I will be promoted soon enough. Dudes, there is so much shit in my plate right now that I wish it was just pasta.

    • 1 year ago
      Anonymous

      Is your dad a gay or a junkie?
      Also your mom must have been one fat frick to actually die from covid

      • 1 year ago
        Anonymous

        I think he is more of a junkie, used to go out with hookers a lot, is paying the price now.

        About my mom, she had a tumor in her brain, and was hipertense, was not fat, just got bad luck in that bad time I guess

  41. 1 year ago
    Anonymous

    Another absolutely gloriously beautiful day. Got out for a great snowshoe, then got to work with my new MDRX. Didn't cycle right on lowest gas setting but was fine after turning it up a bit then went through a few mags. Feels good man. Hope you're doing good too OP.

  42. 1 year ago
    Anonymous

    woke up with my left ball hurting like a b***h, might be a varicocele

  43. 1 year ago
    Anonymous

    Life's going good, making more money than I ever have in my entire life, getting in shape, expenses are almost zero, and I'm planning on purchasing my first fun here soon. If you reading this I hope it gets better for you too fren.

    • 1 year ago
      Anonymous

      >CКC
      Cannuckistani or Yurotrash?
      Either way, godspeed my friend and remember the first rule of gun safety: have fun.

  44. 1 year ago
    Anonymous

    I blew up my knee this weekend. MCL tear. I’m 35, this shit is gonna suck to heal/rehab.

  45. 1 year ago
    Anonymous

    How do you guys think pic related is handling the livestreamed buckbreaking and humiliation of her beloved Russia?

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